In This Life (I)

In This Life, I leave it "Black" and "Blank"

But once you hit the play button, the song starts taking you into a sphere where only blissful emotion is blossomed and then you'd realise how nice all these lyrics of this amazing song

In This Life I Was Loved By You

I, sometimes and many times, was related this song to my Grandma who loved me more than other grandchildrens and her tons of love seemed to be everlasting even years had passed by when heaven took her way in peace some years back

When this song was played, I could feel the chill running down my spine

In this life I was loved by you...

In This Life

I'll Always Luv You

It was not something usual when you turned up in my dream a couple nights ago

And for long spell I was trapped in wordless moment when the morning of Saturday arrived in panache

A few years back I was in deeply blemish emotion when heaven took you back for good and I was crying not to let you go but ended up in sweet surrender knowing you belonged to Jesus and He had released you from any pain that captured you for months

You are the gesture of love, the token of care, the symbol of sincerity

You are always the place I run to because I know I’d find a cushion of love

You are always the shelter I turn to because I know I’d be spoilt by you with ton of ice cream, pool of soft drink and series of decent food when my school holidays arrived back in early years of my childhood in Papua and those years were the best years of my life

I remember one cold night when rain hit harshly our city, I was screaming for blanket and you walked up the stair just to give me those extra blankets to ensure no cold could kill me that night

I remember one hot afternoon after sweating my childhood life with soccer game; I was awaited by you with two cans of Coke & Sprite plus one plate of Ice Cream just to show how much you had loved me as your grandchildren

I remember one decent morning when sun was yet to shine, I was called to enjoy the tastiest Yellow Rice with spicy & chilly tuna just to remind me how much luv you had showered to this life during this childhood

I remember one stunning evenings when I was gathered with a host of friends till late midnight but then I was called home by you because you still kept one plate of tasty fried chicken for me as fried chicken was my favorite food

I remember many days, many nights and many memories of you, Grandma

Moment of visiting you in the hospital when you were lying paralyzed was always triggering any tears of mine

And moment when you holding my hand, trying to hold it tighter, trying to open your eyes for a while, then you crying for some whiles, and it was sorely touching moment of my life forever

And moment of leaving you before going back to Jakarta, I was extremely fragile as I was holding your hand praying for your best but knowing your health might be in the shell and I knew by heart your days were numbered

And when I was on the plane, one nice gentleman sitting next to me telling me to keep loving my loved ones everyday without waiting for their best days or last days

He told me whenever I luv my loved ones then
....“I shall luv them with all of my heart” and...
....“I shall luv them on each and every day” and...
....“I shall tell them that I luv them”...

Then I learn when I luv, I’d luv like it is never going to hurt
Then I learn when I sing, I’d sing like nobody listening
Then I learn when I dance, I’d dance like nobody watching

Grandma,
I know you are now in heaven with our Jesus who blessed us
I know no more pain as only peace is now surrounding you
I know you’ve joint Grandpa to be together forever and ever

Rest in peace, Grandma…
Your love is forever...

I’ll always luv you

I Don't Care

Babe,

I do luv you with all of my heart

I don't care whether it is right or wrong

I don't care whether you realise I'm seen or unseen

I don't care whether you are happy with me or only with my brain's cell

I just don't care...

She Wrote Me....

I knew there was something special about you
But I didn’t see that the first time I saw you
But somehow in some strange way
I felt a gentle tug in my heart
I don’t know how, I don’t know why
It may be the way you smile
It may be the way you look
Either way, I realized I was beginning to like you

I started wishing… I started dreaming…
The feeling is something I’ve never felt before
It’s a wonderful feeling that sometimes makes me smile
It’s a feeling that makes me all jumpy inside
But it’s also a feeling that makes me want to cry

I’ve watched you from a distance
And I’ve longed for a single smile
But all you ever gave me is longing
My heart aches every time I hear you sing
Coz you sound so beautiful

I feel warm every time I see you smile
My heart beats faster every time you walk by
I don’t wanna say I’m crazy about you
I don’t wanna say I’m falling for you
Coz it hurts to know that I would never mean anything to you
And it hurts even more to know there’s nothing I can do

Sometimes it makes me so sad
But still, I can’t stop thinking of you
I can’t say I love you, I can’t say I do
For I don’t even know you
And even if I wanted to… say a thing or two
There’s no way I can get through

So I guess I’ll just be admiring you from a distance
I can’t even look at you as much as I want to
There are a lot of things I don’t understand
A lot of questions I don’t have answers to
But one thing I know for sure
I may mean nothing to you
But boy, am I glad to know you!

And no matter how stupid this feeling can get
I’m never ashamed to admit it’s true
Coz no matter how hopeless, no matter how painful
God knows I’m happy there’s YOU…

David Archuleta

American Idol

David Archuleta is simply astonishing!

First I fancied his purity of voice then later took my breath away when singing "Imagine" before I was realised that a decent star had been born when he sang "Smoky Mountain Memories" a few days ago

For many minutes I was surpised with his vocal when hitting the high notes but then it was not the end as I was continously mesmerized when he perfectly pitching the lower notes in "Long And Winding Road" and this what made him so special on this 7th American Idol

For many times I love American Idol...
The was a time when I was so much into "Lakisha Jones" or "Bo Bice"...

There was a time when I was almost in tears when Constantine sang "I Can't Make You Love Me If You Don't"...

There was a time when I was so speechless when Vonzell Salomon performed "I Have Nothing" as her vocal was suddenly nicer than Whitney Houston, and no wonder if Simon Cowell was more than just impressed that night...

There was a time when I was singing in freedom and rhyming in joy when Amanda Overmyer flashed "I Hate Myself For Loving You" and that mood was just uplifted when this Joan Jett's song brought me back to the old days...

There were many times I shall be honest to fancy American Idols more but I can't be better in my honesty when confessing that a performance of David Achuleta continues making me wonder about the talent he has...

For a very sure, if his single is released after this American Idol 7, I'll surely buy and this is the first record I buy from an American Idols

Then a love of music continues pouring my life
Then a joy of music continues wrapping the big portion of my life
Then a bliss of music is there for me, for eternity

I wish you all the best in this singing competition.
If allowed, I'm hopeful, to see you crowned as the American Idol 2008
If allowed, I'm wishful, to see you written in the history of American Idol as the youngest ever winner

Above all, once again, I'm wishing you all the best!