Love Letter (24 Nov 2008)

a sweet thought of you is here, never goes away...

and i must tell you this because you are the only reason of my blissful sunday when you swayed me in simple joy with enthusiasm that never lasts and suddenly i know i was seeing "an old me in you"

and i must let you this because i keep thinking of you when dawn of monday arrives in wet style where pouring rain grabs me in fragile mood to remind me those sweet days in Ubud when i was falling into you endlessly

and i must listen to my conscience because i'm now livelier than before; bublier than yesterdays; a kind of thing that signals every token that being with you is what matters me most in these days

and i must make you known that i don't mind being irational, silly, bollock or unbelievably stupid because of love, as love is all i need to make this world go around and i'm an always slave of love

but then what i shall be loosing?
i must tell you that i'll be loosing nothing in this world because being with you is the best gift this world could give

and i must tell you that i'll be drawn into the ocean of bliss because nothing drives me more than a thing called love to be happier in this life and it is an always moment i wish to happen in my life

and i must tell you that trapped with you in saint theresa last night was a gift of life when i should lit three candles for all loved ones, and one is for you, as i was hoping this life would treat us sweetly

and i must tell you that a diet coke tastes nicest this weekend when i was with you, having a plate of mixed fruits, somewhere near the calmness when sunday evening offers a joy to live

suddenly i know i must be with you again despite it is ain't easy as hectic has prevented us to get together often, but i'll fight to see you often at any costs

suddenly i know life must be comprised with insensibility to savor the greatest gift of life -which is falling in love-, and i don't mind being zero plausible pursuing my life being with you in days to come

suddenly i know we'd be somewhere on this upcoming weekend when music is our bridge; when japanese food is our talk or when rain is what you expect to fall on

but then...
can i hold myself from falling further?
can i hold myself from fancying you deeper?
can i ask myself to stand where i'm right now?

i don't know and i just don't...
all i do know if life is a choice, a choice of joy, then i'll strive every second to be happier and i'm now encountering someone where happiness is just made naturally thru given smile and smart brain

but then...
i'm lost in words as no other words are perfect to describe this feeling
i'm speechless in the calmness of happiness
i'm a happy person now

i think i must see you soon...

i miss you... i miss all of it...