My Best Cousin

this trip to my second hometown -Surabaya- ain't so hard as no teary or weary feeling was prepared at the outset

but it was all so wrong...

when dropping a visit to my best cousin who was hospitalized due to over-depression reason, it was a teary moment as i saw him in powerless state of mind and i could not hold myself from not crying when offering him a hug

he was my best cousin and he is still my best cousin...

we shared so much in common, the love of soccer, the interest in travelling, the joy of having lager and the complacency of loving grandma much besides we both are the sport freak by all means

we could talk anything till dawn and always enjoy laughing so much when joking about ridiculous things we did in memorable childhood when grandma was our source of joy as she always spoilt two of us with ton of ice cream, decent food and nice outfit

we always remember unconditional love grandma had shared to us, remembering grandma always put us in teary eyes and making us fragile as we knew our love for grandma was unrivalled

i saw my best cousin crying like a kid when telling him that grandma already passed away 4 years ago in peace and he was not told the way it should have been told as he was under serious treatment when grandma died back in august 2004

i saw tears were running thru face of my best cousin and i cried too for that emotion, feeling a presence of grandma and knowing we'd go to her graveyard one day when my best cousin is back to norm

before leaving him, after visiting him 4 days in the trot, i promised a series of nice things namely, (1) visiting grandma's graveyear (2) visiting old friends: om alex, christine and patricia (3) going to ubud bali while bycicling and drinking lager and coffee there (4) meeting and calling our childhood friends like siu dilon etc

i promised him with my heart and i know i could do all with my wishful heart when time is right and when day is good for which we'd see a miracle would happen to my best nephew in month to come

i promised to be with him when he is exempted from this hospital and i'll bring a pair of nike boot and one nike jersey for him as he would wear those as he knows i'm a lover of nike and he is a lover of sport

i promised him a hope to get healthier
i promised him a series of good faith that our Dear Lord has healed him
i promised him a chance to be smiling and laughing again
i promised him a life of joy because he deserves it
i promised him a moment of faith in JC

till day arrives, i promised myself to be a best cousin for him
(our Dear Lord, please listen to my promises to my best cousin)