i'm sorry...

i'm sorry if this time i won't be lying...
and i won't be lying since i didn't feel fine when dealing with your "only want to be heard's attitude" last night and it sent ripples of sour taste into my mouth as this has happened more than 3-time in the past one month

i'm sorry if shall shun your calls...
and i shall shun them as i know myself better, as i know i shall do something to skip any further argument that might have hurt both of us for which this is something i didn't want to happen to this friendship

i'm sorry if i can be no longer being dishonest...
and i'd be dishonest if i say that everything was just fine while i didn't feel fine as i'm highly tempted to confess that it was a-30-minute-waste-of-time when talking and listening to you

i'm sorry if i might be tempted not to know you more...
and i must do so since i prefer to keep only all-those-good-thoughts of you as a person with smart brain and independent attitude with which they might be good to be remembered in this friendship

i'm sorry if this is what it takes to stay good in this friendship...
and this is what a friend shall do when things turn sour as i can't lie to myself that our friendship is good but not great and i prefer to keep it that way in the sphere where hurt is and can be avoided

i'm sorry if last night was made...
i'm sorry if i can't deal with someone who only wants to be understood...
i'm sorry if i admire someone who wants to understand others first before sharing the wants to be understood...

i'm sorry if i was slightly dishonest in the past...
i'm sorry if i was unable to lie any longer...
i'm sorry...