22.17pm was the token when "life is too short" was reaching my mobile...
it was yesterday late evening, it was wednesday...
along the way on the way home, i was thinking hard of this sentence, thrilled by the meaning, moved by the implied message and the left wordless by vibrant expression...
i suddenly realise what to do and what to say...
i suddenly notice what lists are now topping my heart that i must do, and i must do it with my very heart at the first thing in the morning to all my loved ones...
suddenly i think of calling my loving mother...
suddenly i think of texting my respectful dad...
suddenly i think of dropping a hello to my close uncles...
suddenly i think of asking the latest updates of my best cousin "benny"...
and...
suddenly i think of buying a bunch of flower to someone i fancy much...
suddenly i think all of it...
suddenly i think of if, if, and if...
if life has a page then i want to write with simplicity...
if life has a name then i want to call it with honesty...
if life has a color then i want to paint it with sincerity...
suddenly i am too aware that "life is too short" (as my adorable boss texted last night)
suddenly i am thinking of asking my close friends whether they all know that "life is too short"...
suddenly....
(suddenly if life has a chance then i want to share this life with you)
Thursday 22 January 2009
Friday 16 January 2009
love letter (16 january 2009)
my dear beloved,
in some fault wordings that might have hurt you, some might have said that "you are nothing", but i must tell you that you are "something", if not "everything" or "anything" to me and i wish to be with you in this life
in some blemish comments that might have blamed you, few might have said that "you are selfish", but i'm here to tell you that you are a gal with "sharing heart" who loves giving more to others you love, and this has impressed me most
many might have said the downsides of you and many more might have said the upsides of you too, but it is a kind of "take-and-give" of which this life could share, and being up and down is covered under one package called "life"
and if life seems to be uncertain, you could count on me for any certainty, to stand by you, to cheer you up and to be a shoulder to cry on (you know you can always count on for every knowledge i have, every resouces i hold as you have always my heart with you)
or when sorrowing moment hits you badly, you always can ask me and i'll be there for for you, days and nights, as i've promised to be with you thru hills and valleys of this life (you know i'm a man with words and once i've said it then you could keep my words for always)
and if all seems to be right, and nothing seems to be wrong, then can we both go for an ordinary trip to a place where heaven was recently found as this upcoming long weekend might be the best moment? don't you think we shall see a place near the steep cliff, a place where Gods were there to promise an eternity for happiness?
what do you think?
life is now up to you, if not us...
i'm ready for a blissful ride with you...
nothing else matters... why? because you have all my heart...
with all the love in the world,
kevin anthony
in some fault wordings that might have hurt you, some might have said that "you are nothing", but i must tell you that you are "something", if not "everything" or "anything" to me and i wish to be with you in this life
in some blemish comments that might have blamed you, few might have said that "you are selfish", but i'm here to tell you that you are a gal with "sharing heart" who loves giving more to others you love, and this has impressed me most
many might have said the downsides of you and many more might have said the upsides of you too, but it is a kind of "take-and-give" of which this life could share, and being up and down is covered under one package called "life"
and if life seems to be uncertain, you could count on me for any certainty, to stand by you, to cheer you up and to be a shoulder to cry on (you know you can always count on for every knowledge i have, every resouces i hold as you have always my heart with you)
or when sorrowing moment hits you badly, you always can ask me and i'll be there for for you, days and nights, as i've promised to be with you thru hills and valleys of this life (you know i'm a man with words and once i've said it then you could keep my words for always)
and if all seems to be right, and nothing seems to be wrong, then can we both go for an ordinary trip to a place where heaven was recently found as this upcoming long weekend might be the best moment? don't you think we shall see a place near the steep cliff, a place where Gods were there to promise an eternity for happiness?
what do you think?
life is now up to you, if not us...
i'm ready for a blissful ride with you...
nothing else matters... why? because you have all my heart...
with all the love in the world,
kevin anthony
Joy...
A piece of plain croissant can bring joy into my being…
How about you?
Do you know a kind of simple food that produces a kind of ecstasy into your mood?
Try to know it as joy can be found, and to start a day with joyful feeling is a gift of the day…
A piece of plain coffee can create an enhanced mood of my being…
How about you?
If I can be frank, in the morning when dawn was blessed with pouring rain, a simple thought of having a cup of “coffee of the day” in Starbuck had been enormous and this plain coffee was really a thing that made my day...
And the most… music, yes… music…
Playing music is the first thing I do to welcome every morning, and the last thing I wish to do before falling asleep is playing the music too
Why?
In music, arrays of blissful feelings are easily well stored into my heart and I must blame my decent ipod touch for making this close to perfect recently
As Friday is here, as morning still pours with some falling rain, as fragile feeling might be well mixed with increased adrenaline as weekend is coming back once again, I’m thinking that joy is a true gift to human being
If I’m filled up with joy, I could share and pass this joy to my loved ones
And if I start a day with joy, I hold large likeliness to taste that day with joy too
And if joy is large in my heart then bliss will blossom and happiness will be real
And life will be blended in sweetness
Suddenly, what said about “I can’t give you what I don’t have” is well tasted
If I do have extra joy then I could share to my loved ones that joy, and if I know what things that make me joyful then I know better how to be happier in this life
So, for a day like today, a day white-collars love most, a day when lager might be pouring or wine might be sipped later tonight, I’m unveiling you my simple secret to be happy by listing joyful things of my life
Now you know why I’ve been trying my best to live this life to the fullest by being happier, or at least, I’ve been striving to be happier in my life by doing “things I love to do”, by doing “things that bring me joys”, and by living this life positively (as said my Norman Vincent Peale or Robert Schuller)
Happiness is within distance, strive for it and grab it for more, and keep it for eternity
How about you?
Do you know a kind of simple food that produces a kind of ecstasy into your mood?
Try to know it as joy can be found, and to start a day with joyful feeling is a gift of the day…
A piece of plain coffee can create an enhanced mood of my being…
How about you?
If I can be frank, in the morning when dawn was blessed with pouring rain, a simple thought of having a cup of “coffee of the day” in Starbuck had been enormous and this plain coffee was really a thing that made my day...
And the most… music, yes… music…
Playing music is the first thing I do to welcome every morning, and the last thing I wish to do before falling asleep is playing the music too
Why?
In music, arrays of blissful feelings are easily well stored into my heart and I must blame my decent ipod touch for making this close to perfect recently
As Friday is here, as morning still pours with some falling rain, as fragile feeling might be well mixed with increased adrenaline as weekend is coming back once again, I’m thinking that joy is a true gift to human being
If I’m filled up with joy, I could share and pass this joy to my loved ones
And if I start a day with joy, I hold large likeliness to taste that day with joy too
And if joy is large in my heart then bliss will blossom and happiness will be real
And life will be blended in sweetness
Suddenly, what said about “I can’t give you what I don’t have” is well tasted
If I do have extra joy then I could share to my loved ones that joy, and if I know what things that make me joyful then I know better how to be happier in this life
So, for a day like today, a day white-collars love most, a day when lager might be pouring or wine might be sipped later tonight, I’m unveiling you my simple secret to be happy by listing joyful things of my life
Now you know why I’ve been trying my best to live this life to the fullest by being happier, or at least, I’ve been striving to be happier in my life by doing “things I love to do”, by doing “things that bring me joys”, and by living this life positively (as said my Norman Vincent Peale or Robert Schuller)
Happiness is within distance, strive for it and grab it for more, and keep it for eternity
Tuesday 13 January 2009
love gives us fluidity
The big question is now lying here
The only question left, however, is can I live up to my only wish to live to the fullest with this gal?
An enticing joy whenever I’m with her never precludes me from feeling so
After all, the moments of life in St. Theresa, the occasions of sweetness in Pisa Café, and the times of gladness in Starbuck are nothing but decent tokens how well this life has taken me
And if it had not been for the right time of encounter then I would almost certainly have gone on to walk down the aisle, somewhere nearby by the cliff, over one decent sunset, in a place where heaven was recently found in panache
While my heart hit the heights in recent weeks, however, I have also lost in brain for rationality and at heart for plausibility
And while my heart can be the only key to every answer to my future, she can be lynchpin of my bliss
Love gives us fluidity… Love breathes us freedom
And love also breeds seemingly irrationality, a commodity which has been all but a truest gift to enjoy this life to the fullest
It is I can forget what brain says when I’m in love...
I have no fear to live up…
I’m maturing with each month…
I’m taking up every likeliness with heart as the chance to be happiest –as now- might just happen once in lifetime
The only question left, however, is can I live up to my only wish to live to the fullest with this gal?
An enticing joy whenever I’m with her never precludes me from feeling so
After all, the moments of life in St. Theresa, the occasions of sweetness in Pisa Café, and the times of gladness in Starbuck are nothing but decent tokens how well this life has taken me
And if it had not been for the right time of encounter then I would almost certainly have gone on to walk down the aisle, somewhere nearby by the cliff, over one decent sunset, in a place where heaven was recently found in panache
While my heart hit the heights in recent weeks, however, I have also lost in brain for rationality and at heart for plausibility
And while my heart can be the only key to every answer to my future, she can be lynchpin of my bliss
Love gives us fluidity… Love breathes us freedom
And love also breeds seemingly irrationality, a commodity which has been all but a truest gift to enjoy this life to the fullest
It is I can forget what brain says when I’m in love...
I have no fear to live up…
I’m maturing with each month…
I’m taking up every likeliness with heart as the chance to be happiest –as now- might just happen once in lifetime
i'm riding my life with no fear
You have has always made it plain.
There is as much chance of you capturing my heart in fullest extent as previous weekend moving from close to closer, a perfect way to describe our closeness as steamed fish and Karedok seemed to be tastiest in Sari Kuring, somewhere nearby SCBD
You always believe perfection will arrive when time is right without rushing it or nurturing it, and this is something I learn from you, and if I can be honest, this might be something that might have been put me in jeopardy in the past
It can be a frustrating spell….
Like waiting for fine wine to mature or cheese to ripen….
So the keyword here is patience (as you believe patience brings out the best for always)
But there is a whiff around my circle which suggests waiting for right time to find the right person could be a barren option and this is something I might have fallen to believe in, but then I realize waiting for you is a distinct option
It was more worthwhile I guess
I did not regret the slightest sign of being slightly late in finding you in this life, or intimidated by an atmosphere which was about as “fearsome” as bachelor’s life gets me in perfection
As I put it succinctly: "I’ve my life with no fear."
It is one thing many have been tempted to comment that I might have been trapped in relentless searching Ms. Perfect but and it is quite another for few to notice that I’m only a casual chap who aims to the Ms. Right (far from perfection but close to completion)
Suddenly, it gets even better in feeling when knowing my time is closer than thought
Suddenly, all are amazing feelings to feel
Suddenly, you are the most heart-pleasing creature in this life
(all of sudden, out of blue, i'm riding this life without any fear of future)
There is as much chance of you capturing my heart in fullest extent as previous weekend moving from close to closer, a perfect way to describe our closeness as steamed fish and Karedok seemed to be tastiest in Sari Kuring, somewhere nearby SCBD
You always believe perfection will arrive when time is right without rushing it or nurturing it, and this is something I learn from you, and if I can be honest, this might be something that might have been put me in jeopardy in the past
It can be a frustrating spell….
Like waiting for fine wine to mature or cheese to ripen….
So the keyword here is patience (as you believe patience brings out the best for always)
But there is a whiff around my circle which suggests waiting for right time to find the right person could be a barren option and this is something I might have fallen to believe in, but then I realize waiting for you is a distinct option
It was more worthwhile I guess
I did not regret the slightest sign of being slightly late in finding you in this life, or intimidated by an atmosphere which was about as “fearsome” as bachelor’s life gets me in perfection
As I put it succinctly: "I’ve my life with no fear."
It is one thing many have been tempted to comment that I might have been trapped in relentless searching Ms. Perfect but and it is quite another for few to notice that I’m only a casual chap who aims to the Ms. Right (far from perfection but close to completion)
Suddenly, it gets even better in feeling when knowing my time is closer than thought
Suddenly, all are amazing feelings to feel
Suddenly, you are the most heart-pleasing creature in this life
(all of sudden, out of blue, i'm riding this life without any fear of future)
Friday 9 January 2009
love letter (9 january 2009)
My dear beloved,
Last night, a moment with you, produced a brilliant piece of utmost joy inside my heart and I know it would be against any destiny if I try to waive this joyful moment from memory of life
Last night, a moment with you, fed me with indescribable feeling to feel how lucky I’ve been in this life to have met and known you then been loved by you, trailing my every emotion of life to realize this emotion
Last night, a moment with you, proved to the only best joy of yesterday where rain was falling as we both walking hand in hand without any rushing feeling that rain might be harshly pouring in later minutes
Last night, a moment with you, was full of values, linking every talk with smartness and connecting every smile with thankfulness where I was ended up laughing as you were on the phone with my best nephew on the way back home
Last night, a moment with you, was set to be perfect in setting as romantic view was breathtaking inside as continued falling rain was harshly pouring outside, leaving us to wish for this kind of moment to last forever
Last night, a moment with you, was made in heaven
Last night, a moment with you, was always first-best for much of my time
Last night, a moment with you, was painted in an everlasting memory of my life
With all the love in this world,
Kevin Anthony...
Last night, a moment with you, produced a brilliant piece of utmost joy inside my heart and I know it would be against any destiny if I try to waive this joyful moment from memory of life
Last night, a moment with you, fed me with indescribable feeling to feel how lucky I’ve been in this life to have met and known you then been loved by you, trailing my every emotion of life to realize this emotion
Last night, a moment with you, proved to the only best joy of yesterday where rain was falling as we both walking hand in hand without any rushing feeling that rain might be harshly pouring in later minutes
Last night, a moment with you, was full of values, linking every talk with smartness and connecting every smile with thankfulness where I was ended up laughing as you were on the phone with my best nephew on the way back home
Last night, a moment with you, was set to be perfect in setting as romantic view was breathtaking inside as continued falling rain was harshly pouring outside, leaving us to wish for this kind of moment to last forever
Last night, a moment with you, was made in heaven
Last night, a moment with you, was always first-best for much of my time
Last night, a moment with you, was painted in an everlasting memory of my life
With all the love in this world,
Kevin Anthony...
about last night
how do i start to write about is what i want to end to write about, and it is about last night, just last night
i was trapped in contentment when rain was trickling down as i walked her to ice cream's corner, somewhere nearby st. theresa -church of life-, a place where hundreds of candles have been lit, a place where moments of joy have been started with
i was there with this smart young lady, teasing her for a cup of ice cream as she adores ice cream more than any kind of food, while i was trapped with a can of diet coke to please my thirst
the evening went sinfully stunning as decent talks shared and enticing laughter poured as we lived our life for last night, absorbed with amazing view of falling rain and we knew this kind of moment was hard to come by in this hectic city like jakarta
if i then scream for an ice cream wouldn't hurt her, i wish she could hear what i was screaming inside of my heart that i've been wanting her all these days to be part of my life, once and for all...
if i then this pouring rain was too harsh in sound that might have prevented my whispers to her ears, i wish she could listen what i whispered that she has been the central part of my life in recent months, once for all...
if this evening would finally end as ice cream run out of place, as diet coke dried in the glass, i wish i had done enough to let her aware that i do really want her to be included in every walk of this life, once for all...
i wish her enough of last night
and still as this morning arrived, i was once again swayed in the moment of joy, thinking about last night, a moment in pisa's cafe, a time in ikan bakar cianjur batu tulis, a series of laughter and smiles plus talks that would remain forever
and still as this friday fell on, i was hoping in the early morning, down on my knee to pray to our Dear Lord wishing He'd bless this kind of sweetness that He's allowed me tasting in best way of life with this independent gal
and still as my starbuck coffee still smells good, i'm wishing my writing has done enough to express the way i feel about her, the way i love about her, the way i adore the future life with her
and now...
now it is all down to every faith i hold about my future, about her, about one fine day in uluwatu bali, about walking down the aisle, about loving for eternity, about life till the end
now it is my time to move on by exercising my faith in love, once for all...
now, all i know, i've marked another night to remember with a cup of ice cream and a can of diet coke in pisa cafe st. theresa
now it is all about last night, a night where an evening was hold in indescribable bliss of life
yes, it is now and last night...
Have a splendid weekend, my dear beloved!
i was trapped in contentment when rain was trickling down as i walked her to ice cream's corner, somewhere nearby st. theresa -church of life-, a place where hundreds of candles have been lit, a place where moments of joy have been started with
i was there with this smart young lady, teasing her for a cup of ice cream as she adores ice cream more than any kind of food, while i was trapped with a can of diet coke to please my thirst
the evening went sinfully stunning as decent talks shared and enticing laughter poured as we lived our life for last night, absorbed with amazing view of falling rain and we knew this kind of moment was hard to come by in this hectic city like jakarta
if i then scream for an ice cream wouldn't hurt her, i wish she could hear what i was screaming inside of my heart that i've been wanting her all these days to be part of my life, once and for all...
if i then this pouring rain was too harsh in sound that might have prevented my whispers to her ears, i wish she could listen what i whispered that she has been the central part of my life in recent months, once for all...
if this evening would finally end as ice cream run out of place, as diet coke dried in the glass, i wish i had done enough to let her aware that i do really want her to be included in every walk of this life, once for all...
i wish her enough of last night
and still as this morning arrived, i was once again swayed in the moment of joy, thinking about last night, a moment in pisa's cafe, a time in ikan bakar cianjur batu tulis, a series of laughter and smiles plus talks that would remain forever
and still as this friday fell on, i was hoping in the early morning, down on my knee to pray to our Dear Lord wishing He'd bless this kind of sweetness that He's allowed me tasting in best way of life with this independent gal
and still as my starbuck coffee still smells good, i'm wishing my writing has done enough to express the way i feel about her, the way i love about her, the way i adore the future life with her
and now...
now it is all down to every faith i hold about my future, about her, about one fine day in uluwatu bali, about walking down the aisle, about loving for eternity, about life till the end
now it is my time to move on by exercising my faith in love, once for all...
now, all i know, i've marked another night to remember with a cup of ice cream and a can of diet coke in pisa cafe st. theresa
now it is all about last night, a night where an evening was hold in indescribable bliss of life
yes, it is now and last night...
Have a splendid weekend, my dear beloved!
Wednesday 7 January 2009
love letter (7 january 2009)
my only beloved,
never go unnoticed in my life if dating a gal like you will drive me crazy, but you did it with panache, taking me out from an ordinary world then putting me in a world called "loving world" where all emerged to be extra ordinary by all means
the day we got together when new year eve was filled up with fireworks;
the moment when walking thru apartment's podium when new year was closest in heart; the evening when admiration of love was poured joyfully in the world, i know i'll fall into your arms of love sooner rather than later
when 2009 was finally turning up, i was nothing but a chap with ton of joys when knowing we passed this 2008 together and welcomed 2009 together, and together, i believe we'll sail this world of joy
in this 2009, i know my time is now entirely up to you
i've never so wanted to be with someone to start this complete life until i met you
i've failed not to fall into you until i know i can't run away from you
and i confessed that you tied me up with your love in my heart and soul
and now i wish nothing but a time to be with you
and now i think nothing but a moment to love you more
and now i long for nothing but many moments to be your man in this life
others might say this is unreal but i want to love you till sun don't shine, till words don't rhyme, if possible, till heaven burts and i see my foreseeable future will be ended up with you
i love every naturality you've brought into my life
i love every smartness you've impressed me whenever we're trapped in chatting
i love every independence you've shown me since your early years
i love every sensitivity you've displayed over months when we seeing each other
i love evey casual confession, ordinary gestures and loving moments
and i love it all
i know that you love bali but what i don't know is that you love bali more than i do as you want to work in bali in later part of your life, something i wish to do when life stamping me in upcoming years
but now i shall win your heart for good
and this is what i could promise you...
a day when sunset is set in perfect scenery...
over one fancy cliff near uluwatu, in a place called bali where heaven was recently found...
i'd promise in front of our Dear Lord to love you till death do us apart
i promise you this...
and i'll promise to stand by you in ups and downs, thru thicks and thins over the hills and valleys to be with you all of my life
i promise to love you for eternity
with all the love in the world,
kevin anthony
never go unnoticed in my life if dating a gal like you will drive me crazy, but you did it with panache, taking me out from an ordinary world then putting me in a world called "loving world" where all emerged to be extra ordinary by all means
the day we got together when new year eve was filled up with fireworks;
the moment when walking thru apartment's podium when new year was closest in heart; the evening when admiration of love was poured joyfully in the world, i know i'll fall into your arms of love sooner rather than later
when 2009 was finally turning up, i was nothing but a chap with ton of joys when knowing we passed this 2008 together and welcomed 2009 together, and together, i believe we'll sail this world of joy
in this 2009, i know my time is now entirely up to you
i've never so wanted to be with someone to start this complete life until i met you
i've failed not to fall into you until i know i can't run away from you
and i confessed that you tied me up with your love in my heart and soul
and now i wish nothing but a time to be with you
and now i think nothing but a moment to love you more
and now i long for nothing but many moments to be your man in this life
others might say this is unreal but i want to love you till sun don't shine, till words don't rhyme, if possible, till heaven burts and i see my foreseeable future will be ended up with you
i love every naturality you've brought into my life
i love every smartness you've impressed me whenever we're trapped in chatting
i love every independence you've shown me since your early years
i love every sensitivity you've displayed over months when we seeing each other
i love evey casual confession, ordinary gestures and loving moments
and i love it all
i know that you love bali but what i don't know is that you love bali more than i do as you want to work in bali in later part of your life, something i wish to do when life stamping me in upcoming years
but now i shall win your heart for good
and this is what i could promise you...
a day when sunset is set in perfect scenery...
over one fancy cliff near uluwatu, in a place called bali where heaven was recently found...
i'd promise in front of our Dear Lord to love you till death do us apart
i promise you this...
and i'll promise to stand by you in ups and downs, thru thicks and thins over the hills and valleys to be with you all of my life
i promise to love you for eternity
with all the love in the world,
kevin anthony
i miss you (like nothing else)
i miss you
i do miss you like nothing else
i've missed you since this morning
i miss you like i want to be with you all day and night
and i do mean it from the bottom of my heart
i call you just to listen your voice
i text you just to read your written word
i wish you just wish you to see you tonight
and i was lucky to be able to see you over a simple dinner at the hawker of menteng last night
suddenly a thought of being with you was uncontrollable
suddenly a wish to fly with you to Bali was killing me
suddely a feeling of missing you is a killing kind
and i know i miss you by heart, soul and mind
and i just miss you
if day starts with gloomy weather like today, i won't be worried as i know all worries will be washed away because i'll be with you in later hours to enjoy our being
if morning kicks off with blemish view of pouring rain, i won't be disturbed as i know all feelings from gloom to doom will be vanished by the time i see our togetherness in dinner time
if day, or morning, or afternoon and evening will be a gale, still, i won't be distracted because being with you would give me load of joyful feelings that only love could do
out of blue, i start missing you again on this cloudy morning
and i can't stop writing how much i've been missing you since seeing you last night
truly, i miss you in my heartbeat
deeply, i miss you for always
and sinfully, i'll miss you till heaven burts
i do miss you like nothing else
i've missed you since this morning
i miss you like i want to be with you all day and night
and i do mean it from the bottom of my heart
i call you just to listen your voice
i text you just to read your written word
i wish you just wish you to see you tonight
and i was lucky to be able to see you over a simple dinner at the hawker of menteng last night
suddenly a thought of being with you was uncontrollable
suddenly a wish to fly with you to Bali was killing me
suddely a feeling of missing you is a killing kind
and i know i miss you by heart, soul and mind
and i just miss you
if day starts with gloomy weather like today, i won't be worried as i know all worries will be washed away because i'll be with you in later hours to enjoy our being
if morning kicks off with blemish view of pouring rain, i won't be disturbed as i know all feelings from gloom to doom will be vanished by the time i see our togetherness in dinner time
if day, or morning, or afternoon and evening will be a gale, still, i won't be distracted because being with you would give me load of joyful feelings that only love could do
out of blue, i start missing you again on this cloudy morning
and i can't stop writing how much i've been missing you since seeing you last night
truly, i miss you in my heartbeat
deeply, i miss you for always
and sinfully, i'll miss you till heaven burts
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