when i'm thinking of stand still, you come and offer two steps forward, a kind of drive that boosts every best need in my deep heart, and i don't know why your arrival has always been punctual
when i'm wordless with moment of confusion, you unveil new words of love then show what the true love is without asking me whether to love you back is a must, instead you offer me a choice to be free like a bird
when i'm trapped of mixed feelings of being human, you step in and lead me to one corner of life, showing me a series of wonderful things, sharing me load of wondrous moments that later i know they are magical by any standard
and then i'm lost in thanking you in the end...
and i know you my guardian angel sent by our Dear Lord only for me...
if i can be honest...
sometimes i wish i were your hope when doubt arrives
sometimes i wish i were your tears under the pouring rain
sometimes i wish i were your channel into blissfulness
sometimes and many times...
if time still remains, if clock still ticks then i know my time will arrive to take you back home, a place where sun shines all the year without being disrupted by immortal disease of living (this is what you've been wanting)...
i know you need a peaceful place to live your remaining future, a kind of place where your dream to be gardener might be visualized in real terms, as you keep mentioning this wish over and over again (this is what you've been wishing for)...
and i promise you to take you there, a home of peacefulness, a kind of place where your heart belongs forever
i'll take you there...
Thursday 8 October 2009
...moments and suddenly...
sometimes i love being unknown...
sometimes i just love being unnoticed...
sometimes i just think and love being no one...
sometimes i just wish, hope and love being someone that falls into ordinary...
sometimes i just miss the moment of being nothing with myself...
the moment when i feel nothing is the joyful moment when i start thanking for everything i've been blessed, a healthy breath and a happy life which is precious by any means
the moment when i stop thinking is the enticing moment when i feel abundant, fulfilled with present life for which many have said i've been blessed more than others, and still, the blessing continues pouring
the moment when i look outside is the cracking moment when i feel full inside when my hunger of loving my loved ones is suddenly driving me like no endless road for which my scale of loving is suddenly inflating to the unthinkable level with which i have no control
suddenly i'm only dealing with moments....
suddenly i'm seeing myself into moments....
suddenly i'm with ms. giving heart that melts me to the ground...
suddenly i see bright future in my hands...
sometimes i just love being unnoticed...
sometimes i just think and love being no one...
sometimes i just wish, hope and love being someone that falls into ordinary...
sometimes i just miss the moment of being nothing with myself...
the moment when i feel nothing is the joyful moment when i start thanking for everything i've been blessed, a healthy breath and a happy life which is precious by any means
the moment when i stop thinking is the enticing moment when i feel abundant, fulfilled with present life for which many have said i've been blessed more than others, and still, the blessing continues pouring
the moment when i look outside is the cracking moment when i feel full inside when my hunger of loving my loved ones is suddenly driving me like no endless road for which my scale of loving is suddenly inflating to the unthinkable level with which i have no control
suddenly i'm only dealing with moments....
suddenly i'm seeing myself into moments....
suddenly i'm with ms. giving heart that melts me to the ground...
suddenly i see bright future in my hands...
Friday 18 September 2009
Me & Giving
Suddenly I know I must write again and I don’t have to like what I have to write
All I do know I must write what I’m feeling now as load of thoughts have been stamping upon my mind in the past two days, something which is unusual to feel but usual to beat and I’m now taking this chance
I might have been overjoyed with what this life has treated me in some extents, and my belief in giving instead of taking seems to be behind every move that I lately make, despite increased alertness has also been followed with whether my giving is the right giving or not
I must write what I believe about “pay it forward” despite I have not watched this movie
I must write “pay it forward” because I think it is like contagious disease which is good
I must write it, right now, as I know it is something worthwhile for fighting for
I must write to tell you I want to do something more for this decent world
So now I’m writing…
A few days ago, I was faced with slightly delicate situation where I was asked to favor things I’m tempted to do which is to help someone in thorny situation where a fast help is the only choice
I was torn into two as another alert from this bottom heart was in question, but I was just too blind to say “yes” because I know it was something I shall do instinctively when things get harsh when I know I shall lend a helping hand
When I agreed to favor, a series of thankfulness was flown, but all I had in mind was a sentence of “pay it forward”, and it was just spoken out in blink of an eye which was funny to read but then it was enjoyable to feel in later hours… I said…”
“don’t thank me, but thanks to our Dear God, because He makes this meeting possible, and He was given me a chance to show you to do another PAY IT FORWARD to someone else, somewhere in the future, whenever someone comes and asks help from you”
I don’t know the impact of my sentence, but all I know the lad was sitting in front of me was close to tears, and he is a mature guy, older than me, better than me, smarter than me and more experience than me…
I was thrilled for some seconds and I have nothing to say in later minutes…
I was drown into unknowingness of my sentence but gladness of telling was just overwhelmed…
Then I believe I might have done something minor to this world by doing something good forward which we all do have rights to do, but few might be interested to do, but then I promise to do this as partly of my commitment to do more “giving and giving”
I was still in the state of shock to know this chap was still sticking to my words, and finally when he left he promised to do the same to others who might come later to ask for another favor
Suddenly, ton of blissfulness comes into feeling and it was just enormous to handle this blessing, but I know it was all just a decent beginning
All I learn when giving is a habit, taking would mean less as giving gives more joys than what taking could give…
Try to keep giving as He’ll do the taking
I love giving, and I want to meet the love of my life, Ms. Giving shortly…
All I do know I must write what I’m feeling now as load of thoughts have been stamping upon my mind in the past two days, something which is unusual to feel but usual to beat and I’m now taking this chance
I might have been overjoyed with what this life has treated me in some extents, and my belief in giving instead of taking seems to be behind every move that I lately make, despite increased alertness has also been followed with whether my giving is the right giving or not
I must write what I believe about “pay it forward” despite I have not watched this movie
I must write “pay it forward” because I think it is like contagious disease which is good
I must write it, right now, as I know it is something worthwhile for fighting for
I must write to tell you I want to do something more for this decent world
So now I’m writing…
A few days ago, I was faced with slightly delicate situation where I was asked to favor things I’m tempted to do which is to help someone in thorny situation where a fast help is the only choice
I was torn into two as another alert from this bottom heart was in question, but I was just too blind to say “yes” because I know it was something I shall do instinctively when things get harsh when I know I shall lend a helping hand
When I agreed to favor, a series of thankfulness was flown, but all I had in mind was a sentence of “pay it forward”, and it was just spoken out in blink of an eye which was funny to read but then it was enjoyable to feel in later hours… I said…”
“don’t thank me, but thanks to our Dear God, because He makes this meeting possible, and He was given me a chance to show you to do another PAY IT FORWARD to someone else, somewhere in the future, whenever someone comes and asks help from you”
I don’t know the impact of my sentence, but all I know the lad was sitting in front of me was close to tears, and he is a mature guy, older than me, better than me, smarter than me and more experience than me…
I was thrilled for some seconds and I have nothing to say in later minutes…
I was drown into unknowingness of my sentence but gladness of telling was just overwhelmed…
Then I believe I might have done something minor to this world by doing something good forward which we all do have rights to do, but few might be interested to do, but then I promise to do this as partly of my commitment to do more “giving and giving”
I was still in the state of shock to know this chap was still sticking to my words, and finally when he left he promised to do the same to others who might come later to ask for another favor
Suddenly, ton of blissfulness comes into feeling and it was just enormous to handle this blessing, but I know it was all just a decent beginning
All I learn when giving is a habit, taking would mean less as giving gives more joys than what taking could give…
Try to keep giving as He’ll do the taking
I love giving, and I want to meet the love of my life, Ms. Giving shortly…
Monday 11 May 2009
punctuality, selfish & sour taste in my mouth
i might have a song to sing but i'm not sure whether you have lyrics to write
and if you do what kind of lyrics to share?
was it a blemish lyrics?
or was it bleak tone?
to be honest, loads in this mind to write but i'm unsure whether blaming, accusing, or pointing finger to others is a good way to earn respect, instead i believe it is one of the simplest ways of losing respect from others
and i'm now sure that seeing some attitudes in selfish people on the last friday really produced some bad tastes of sourest feeling in my mouth, and this bad taste remained here till the minute when jotting down this piece of writing
i tried hard to leave it all behind, but the harder i tried the harder it haunted me back, so i shall be honest to share that last friday was a blemish day as the person i must meet was simply unpunctual, unjust, selfish, blaming lover and just unnice to meet with
i shall be 30-minute earlier from the scheduled meeting to avoid any potential late of weekend's traffic, and i was there in senayan city at 430pm, as the meeting shall be at 5pm, and this meeting had been rescheduled from 4pm, because i sensed that 4pm might be too tight for this person
when reaching there, i texted that i was ready at any time for the meeting, and it was replied that "thanks for informing, and i'll see you soon", and with this reply i was sure to meet up at 5pm as i must leave this place at 630pm to have another gathering meeting at 7pm in cityloft (later i joined my friends in mu cafe)
what happened to my surprise, this person turned up in 535pm, without any noticed despite i texted twice to confirm whether the meeting was still on or not, and when i was about to leave, this person turned up with smile by saying "sorry i was disrupted by shoes for a while"...(later i found out this person was shopping shoes before meeting me... omg)...
i felt sour in my mouth, and my body language was clear with unease feeling...
right away i felt unease dealing with this person and it was just killing me...
and what happened next was even amazing as i was blamed from being too discipline with schedule and left no room to be late, and i was left wordless to know that i was in the position to be accused further...
(where in the world the wrong accuses the right?)...
i was lost for a moment or two...
when i was finally able to get myself on the grip, i noticed that this person shared a series of things that i abhored most in this life which is unpunctual and selfishness...
look, i'm not a perfect by any means and i can be late or later by all means too, but i believe it is really fair if we tell the other side if we are late or later, while indicating how long will be late as this is to show some good respect to others which is very common by any means
but without any notices, instead shared the blames, and tried hard to defend some arguments which is silly and baseless in my very assessment, i think, this person was just wrecking the whole good image that i had and this was disaster indeed from now onward
gladly to know in later hour before saying good bye, an apology was shared and accepted, despite no sign of sincerity in apologizing was given, for which, i think it was an obvious indication this person was just too much for the pride
i might be wrong in sharing this, but i think i must write for relieving something i feel really bad in this mouth...
i'm hopeful our Dear Lord will understand why i shall complain about this as i'm -by nature- not a complainer, but this person took so much of my dislike of last friday
till day arrives i know i shall find the best way to deal with this person, i shall take more initiatives by callings or texting before the meeting, otherwise, my time was wasted, and if possible, i try not to deal with such personality that only leaves plenty of sour taste in my mouth
have a splendid monday everyone...
and if you do what kind of lyrics to share?
was it a blemish lyrics?
or was it bleak tone?
to be honest, loads in this mind to write but i'm unsure whether blaming, accusing, or pointing finger to others is a good way to earn respect, instead i believe it is one of the simplest ways of losing respect from others
and i'm now sure that seeing some attitudes in selfish people on the last friday really produced some bad tastes of sourest feeling in my mouth, and this bad taste remained here till the minute when jotting down this piece of writing
i tried hard to leave it all behind, but the harder i tried the harder it haunted me back, so i shall be honest to share that last friday was a blemish day as the person i must meet was simply unpunctual, unjust, selfish, blaming lover and just unnice to meet with
i shall be 30-minute earlier from the scheduled meeting to avoid any potential late of weekend's traffic, and i was there in senayan city at 430pm, as the meeting shall be at 5pm, and this meeting had been rescheduled from 4pm, because i sensed that 4pm might be too tight for this person
when reaching there, i texted that i was ready at any time for the meeting, and it was replied that "thanks for informing, and i'll see you soon", and with this reply i was sure to meet up at 5pm as i must leave this place at 630pm to have another gathering meeting at 7pm in cityloft (later i joined my friends in mu cafe)
what happened to my surprise, this person turned up in 535pm, without any noticed despite i texted twice to confirm whether the meeting was still on or not, and when i was about to leave, this person turned up with smile by saying "sorry i was disrupted by shoes for a while"...(later i found out this person was shopping shoes before meeting me... omg)...
i felt sour in my mouth, and my body language was clear with unease feeling...
right away i felt unease dealing with this person and it was just killing me...
and what happened next was even amazing as i was blamed from being too discipline with schedule and left no room to be late, and i was left wordless to know that i was in the position to be accused further...
(where in the world the wrong accuses the right?)...
i was lost for a moment or two...
when i was finally able to get myself on the grip, i noticed that this person shared a series of things that i abhored most in this life which is unpunctual and selfishness...
look, i'm not a perfect by any means and i can be late or later by all means too, but i believe it is really fair if we tell the other side if we are late or later, while indicating how long will be late as this is to show some good respect to others which is very common by any means
but without any notices, instead shared the blames, and tried hard to defend some arguments which is silly and baseless in my very assessment, i think, this person was just wrecking the whole good image that i had and this was disaster indeed from now onward
gladly to know in later hour before saying good bye, an apology was shared and accepted, despite no sign of sincerity in apologizing was given, for which, i think it was an obvious indication this person was just too much for the pride
i might be wrong in sharing this, but i think i must write for relieving something i feel really bad in this mouth...
i'm hopeful our Dear Lord will understand why i shall complain about this as i'm -by nature- not a complainer, but this person took so much of my dislike of last friday
till day arrives i know i shall find the best way to deal with this person, i shall take more initiatives by callings or texting before the meeting, otherwise, my time was wasted, and if possible, i try not to deal with such personality that only leaves plenty of sour taste in my mouth
have a splendid monday everyone...
Tuesday 5 May 2009
i'm glad...
and we don't know how it ends as i never know when it begins...
if i'm blamed to wait too long to see an opened door after another door was closed the other day, i'll take the whole blame, and i never regretted to come to term to seize this joy of life that i'm now savoring
at least, a new beginning started last night when honesty was unveiled in the 70-minute talk over the phone, and i was surprised to have known how much wrong-impression you got over me just by looking the outside of me without knowing me well inside
but i'm glad we talked it over...
but i'm glad we sorted it out...
and i'm glad we left those past hurts then moved for sweeter futures...
while days might be longer and hills might be steeper i never lost any faith that we'd make it there since we have all it takes to get there, a handful love and a series of understandings that others might have envied
and i see no any other foreseeable future that might prevent us from not moving forward with this life, and every leading token to best partnership is now crystal clear, and i know we'll be there, get there, together and forever
if there is a question of when then i shall leave it to the world of certainty to answer since i'm the slave of certainty, and in you, i found load of certainties about life, love and eternity
if there will be a question, as questions keep coming back, i'll be a sweet surrender to your hearty certainty that makes me like a child in the swing of lullaby, a day when you promised to keep me for good and bad, ups and downs, thicks and thins, more and less and forever
if there are many more to ask, or to question, i'll be there with answers and some of answers might not be there as every question might have no answer and some of the best answers are lied in unanswered
and i know this is my now, that's it... nothing more...
live it for now and forever...
loves you so much...
(kevin and anthony)
if i'm blamed to wait too long to see an opened door after another door was closed the other day, i'll take the whole blame, and i never regretted to come to term to seize this joy of life that i'm now savoring
at least, a new beginning started last night when honesty was unveiled in the 70-minute talk over the phone, and i was surprised to have known how much wrong-impression you got over me just by looking the outside of me without knowing me well inside
but i'm glad we talked it over...
but i'm glad we sorted it out...
and i'm glad we left those past hurts then moved for sweeter futures...
while days might be longer and hills might be steeper i never lost any faith that we'd make it there since we have all it takes to get there, a handful love and a series of understandings that others might have envied
and i see no any other foreseeable future that might prevent us from not moving forward with this life, and every leading token to best partnership is now crystal clear, and i know we'll be there, get there, together and forever
if there is a question of when then i shall leave it to the world of certainty to answer since i'm the slave of certainty, and in you, i found load of certainties about life, love and eternity
if there will be a question, as questions keep coming back, i'll be a sweet surrender to your hearty certainty that makes me like a child in the swing of lullaby, a day when you promised to keep me for good and bad, ups and downs, thicks and thins, more and less and forever
if there are many more to ask, or to question, i'll be there with answers and some of answers might not be there as every question might have no answer and some of the best answers are lied in unanswered
and i know this is my now, that's it... nothing more...
live it for now and forever...
loves you so much...
(kevin and anthony)
till day arrives
i'm in doubt if nothing could stop me from leaving this city as my aim to be in the island of god seems to become more imperative than ever as every token of my heart leads to one single evidence that my life has been destined to be there
i'm in doubt if every best dream that i've dreamed for is only to live peacefully in this island, a place where sun shines all year long, a city where live has been well blended with joy and bliss, a destination where my soul finds its best shell
i'm in doubt if anything in this world could stop me from believing that my life was made in east, then shifted to the west, but would end up in the central, a kind of perfect combination of life
i'm in doubt really...
even last night when i was in earnest talk with my dear ones, i shared how much i want to live this life to the fullest, and this might be realized when i move to this island within nearest years as i know the calling is louder than before, and it is my time to pay back to my Dear Lord
and i shared to people i care, woman i love, parent i adore and families i respect that i've been in love with this place, and i'll keep going back to regain my soul that i've left somewhere near the steep cliff where best view of sunset was made once for all
suddenly i know this calling never ends, and i know it'll be coming back for more as i find ton of happiness whenever i arrive there, and some of friends, and old friends started moving there to build up a new community
if time allows me, i'll be there for good, and if my Dear Lord permits me, i wish to be there earlier than planned, but still, i leave it all this to the hand of my Redeemer
till day arrives, i keep hoping, praying and wishing for that day
i'm in doubt if every best dream that i've dreamed for is only to live peacefully in this island, a place where sun shines all year long, a city where live has been well blended with joy and bliss, a destination where my soul finds its best shell
i'm in doubt if anything in this world could stop me from believing that my life was made in east, then shifted to the west, but would end up in the central, a kind of perfect combination of life
i'm in doubt really...
even last night when i was in earnest talk with my dear ones, i shared how much i want to live this life to the fullest, and this might be realized when i move to this island within nearest years as i know the calling is louder than before, and it is my time to pay back to my Dear Lord
and i shared to people i care, woman i love, parent i adore and families i respect that i've been in love with this place, and i'll keep going back to regain my soul that i've left somewhere near the steep cliff where best view of sunset was made once for all
suddenly i know this calling never ends, and i know it'll be coming back for more as i find ton of happiness whenever i arrive there, and some of friends, and old friends started moving there to build up a new community
if time allows me, i'll be there for good, and if my Dear Lord permits me, i wish to be there earlier than planned, but still, i leave it all this to the hand of my Redeemer
till day arrives, i keep hoping, praying and wishing for that day
Wednesday 25 March 2009
..i shall be frank with you...
I shall be frank that I’m happier now than at any other stage of my life and I’m more than ready to sign a contract of living in a place called “heaven on earth” in the near future
Anything is looking up and I could hardly be in a more confident mood that this is the right time to live up my dream, living my dreaming life in the best possible manner
Having gone thru decades of working-hard then followed by years of working-smart, then scored some decent things in my future investments, I suddenly find myself leading a life with realistic ambitions of moving to this dreaming island where sun shines all the way thru the year
It is a far cry from the dark days when all seems life would never been possible to retire young while doing charity work to help the lesser ones, but now all seems to be highly possible and in the next 4 years, by latest, I’m a man with dreaming life
I must, again, confess that…
"I have never been happier throughout my whole life than I am at the moment"
"I have four years left on my plan to work and live in Jakarta and if there was a chance to leave this hectic city, I am sure I would”
"I am entertaining a simply brilliant enterprise, working with a top team with best skills in the industry and I believe in the genuine partnership for which, going forward, I am sure we can be successful"
I must, again, confess that the relationship with my people and my partner plus those who have been in the business with us is the pivotal factor
Now I’m speeding up every possible way to make it earlier as I’m holding my feat with destiny as I know that Bali has stolen my soul since I first visited this place decades back
Now I’m loving the idea of living in Bali is just a matter of time
Now I’m knowing that helping the lesser ones is another feat of my life that I must do to repay the talents our Dear Lord has given to me
I know I’d do this with all of my heart…
(for always)….
Anything is looking up and I could hardly be in a more confident mood that this is the right time to live up my dream, living my dreaming life in the best possible manner
Having gone thru decades of working-hard then followed by years of working-smart, then scored some decent things in my future investments, I suddenly find myself leading a life with realistic ambitions of moving to this dreaming island where sun shines all the way thru the year
It is a far cry from the dark days when all seems life would never been possible to retire young while doing charity work to help the lesser ones, but now all seems to be highly possible and in the next 4 years, by latest, I’m a man with dreaming life
I must, again, confess that…
"I have never been happier throughout my whole life than I am at the moment"
"I have four years left on my plan to work and live in Jakarta and if there was a chance to leave this hectic city, I am sure I would”
"I am entertaining a simply brilliant enterprise, working with a top team with best skills in the industry and I believe in the genuine partnership for which, going forward, I am sure we can be successful"
I must, again, confess that the relationship with my people and my partner plus those who have been in the business with us is the pivotal factor
Now I’m speeding up every possible way to make it earlier as I’m holding my feat with destiny as I know that Bali has stolen my soul since I first visited this place decades back
Now I’m loving the idea of living in Bali is just a matter of time
Now I’m knowing that helping the lesser ones is another feat of my life that I must do to repay the talents our Dear Lord has given to me
I know I’d do this with all of my heart…
(for always)….
Thursday 12 March 2009
Monday 23 February 2009
She Is My Lover (1)
In life, I'm a slave of my dreams… In happiness, I'm a slave of giving.
I don't know if you read my recent email to you a month ago but I think and hope you'll get the message… Sometimes, you've got to be a little cruel to be kind (especially when telling the honesty)…
Fact is, money isn't everything... Status isn’t anything….
I'm thinking of myself, my families, my best friends and my responsibility to our Dear Lord here, too…. Perhaps it's vanity; perhaps it's the passion for helping others I've carried since I was kid…. But I cannot bear the thought of saying goodbye to help the lesser ones...
I've done few to help others and I’d love to give it another crack in giving more and help others to reach their dreams thru proper educational path that everyone is deserved to have
But for that, I've got to work hard and smart
My heart is now talking to two things: balance and boundary…
In balance I’ve found load of amicable natures while in boundary I’ve found pool of acceptances
Of course, I will obey every of what I can’t do in giving…
This isn't it about fame or fortune…. For once, it's just about giving
Have a splendid Monday everyone!
I don't know if you read my recent email to you a month ago but I think and hope you'll get the message… Sometimes, you've got to be a little cruel to be kind (especially when telling the honesty)…
Fact is, money isn't everything... Status isn’t anything….
I'm thinking of myself, my families, my best friends and my responsibility to our Dear Lord here, too…. Perhaps it's vanity; perhaps it's the passion for helping others I've carried since I was kid…. But I cannot bear the thought of saying goodbye to help the lesser ones...
I've done few to help others and I’d love to give it another crack in giving more and help others to reach their dreams thru proper educational path that everyone is deserved to have
But for that, I've got to work hard and smart
My heart is now talking to two things: balance and boundary…
In balance I’ve found load of amicable natures while in boundary I’ve found pool of acceptances
Of course, I will obey every of what I can’t do in giving…
This isn't it about fame or fortune…. For once, it's just about giving
Have a splendid Monday everyone!
She Is My Lover...
Saying good bye is never easy, especially when the timing is not right and reason is only slight. But, please, you have to let me go.
Truth is, I've found another love.
With her, I feel fulfilled and I feel blessed
She's given me a new spell on my life and I've rediscovered my good reason to be happier in this life
Her name is “giving heart”…
Some call her "charity work" and I've been tickled pink ever since I met her recently, and like my joyful times with swimming and yoga, I'm back where I feel happier: giving to the lesser and helping the unfortunate ones
Yes, I know I said my love for Bali would be unrivalled, my assigned works might be too hectic, and both might limit my chance of doing the giving in Jakarta
Yes, you are right to think this way but I didn't know then that being involved with charity work would be so much fun. (And the fulfillment in my heart ... Wow!)
Perhaps you missed my goal of life which I should have told you earlier when we met the other day.
Was my best friend “just give it without take it” shown to you my philosophy of life before?
Anyhow, the joy of giving was a gem, the kind that made me happy, a free ticket to walk in the path of bliss that I’ve learnt from my tutor of life “mr. yoga”
Truth, I'm still learning happiness' language, but I know what "joy" means
I know it's hard on you...
But here I am once again… giving is my joy… I’ll keep doing this while I can
I’m now missing a gal with charity’s heart badly…
Truth is, I've found another love.
With her, I feel fulfilled and I feel blessed
She's given me a new spell on my life and I've rediscovered my good reason to be happier in this life
Her name is “giving heart”…
Some call her "charity work" and I've been tickled pink ever since I met her recently, and like my joyful times with swimming and yoga, I'm back where I feel happier: giving to the lesser and helping the unfortunate ones
Yes, I know I said my love for Bali would be unrivalled, my assigned works might be too hectic, and both might limit my chance of doing the giving in Jakarta
Yes, you are right to think this way but I didn't know then that being involved with charity work would be so much fun. (And the fulfillment in my heart ... Wow!)
Perhaps you missed my goal of life which I should have told you earlier when we met the other day.
Was my best friend “just give it without take it” shown to you my philosophy of life before?
Anyhow, the joy of giving was a gem, the kind that made me happy, a free ticket to walk in the path of bliss that I’ve learnt from my tutor of life “mr. yoga”
Truth, I'm still learning happiness' language, but I know what "joy" means
I know it's hard on you...
But here I am once again… giving is my joy… I’ll keep doing this while I can
I’m now missing a gal with charity’s heart badly…
Thursday 12 February 2009
dare to dream....
...dare to dream, but even more importantly, dare to put action behinds your dreams...
It Is What We Do
"We don't choose the day you enter the world and we don't chose the day you leave... It's what we do in between that makes all the difference"
It Is What We Do
"We don't choose the day you enter the world and we don't chose the day you leave... It's what we do in between that makes all the difference"
It Is What We Do...
"We don't choose the day you enter the world and we don't chose the day you leave... It's what we do in between that makes all the difference"
Our Dear Lord....
"Our Dear Lord does not want us to do extraordinary things; He wants us to do ordinary things extraordinarily well"...
"Our Dear Lord does not want us to do extraordinary things; He wants us to do ordinary things extraordinarily well"...
"Our Dear Lord does not want us to do extraordinary things; He wants us to do ordinary things extraordinarily well"...
"Our Dear Lord does not want us to do extraordinary things; He wants us to do ordinary things extraordinarily well"...
"Our Dear Lord does not want us to do extraordinary things; He wants us to do ordinary things extraordinarily well"...
i'm sorry...
i'm sorry if this time i won't be lying...
and i won't be lying since i didn't feel fine when dealing with your "only want to be heard's attitude" last night and it sent ripples of sour taste into my mouth as this has happened more than 3-time in the past one month
i'm sorry if shall shun your calls...
and i shall shun them as i know myself better, as i know i shall do something to skip any further argument that might have hurt both of us for which this is something i didn't want to happen to this friendship
i'm sorry if i can be no longer being dishonest...
and i'd be dishonest if i say that everything was just fine while i didn't feel fine as i'm highly tempted to confess that it was a-30-minute-waste-of-time when talking and listening to you
i'm sorry if i might be tempted not to know you more...
and i must do so since i prefer to keep only all-those-good-thoughts of you as a person with smart brain and independent attitude with which they might be good to be remembered in this friendship
i'm sorry if this is what it takes to stay good in this friendship...
and this is what a friend shall do when things turn sour as i can't lie to myself that our friendship is good but not great and i prefer to keep it that way in the sphere where hurt is and can be avoided
i'm sorry if last night was made...
i'm sorry if i can't deal with someone who only wants to be understood...
i'm sorry if i admire someone who wants to understand others first before sharing the wants to be understood...
i'm sorry if i was slightly dishonest in the past...
i'm sorry if i was unable to lie any longer...
i'm sorry...
and i won't be lying since i didn't feel fine when dealing with your "only want to be heard's attitude" last night and it sent ripples of sour taste into my mouth as this has happened more than 3-time in the past one month
i'm sorry if shall shun your calls...
and i shall shun them as i know myself better, as i know i shall do something to skip any further argument that might have hurt both of us for which this is something i didn't want to happen to this friendship
i'm sorry if i can be no longer being dishonest...
and i'd be dishonest if i say that everything was just fine while i didn't feel fine as i'm highly tempted to confess that it was a-30-minute-waste-of-time when talking and listening to you
i'm sorry if i might be tempted not to know you more...
and i must do so since i prefer to keep only all-those-good-thoughts of you as a person with smart brain and independent attitude with which they might be good to be remembered in this friendship
i'm sorry if this is what it takes to stay good in this friendship...
and this is what a friend shall do when things turn sour as i can't lie to myself that our friendship is good but not great and i prefer to keep it that way in the sphere where hurt is and can be avoided
i'm sorry if last night was made...
i'm sorry if i can't deal with someone who only wants to be understood...
i'm sorry if i admire someone who wants to understand others first before sharing the wants to be understood...
i'm sorry if i was slightly dishonest in the past...
i'm sorry if i was unable to lie any longer...
i'm sorry...
Monday 9 February 2009
Last Night In St Theresa
Last night I was in the Church of Life, letting three candles burnt while sending simple prayers to my Dear Lord to take a good care of my loved ones and my business that is now in the fast lane of growing path
Last night I was in Saint Theresa, being another person with sincerity and praying for simplicity as this life has been wonderful and I just want to swim this ocean of joy by being a person who believes in my Redeemer only
Last night I was amazed by one simple confession of one imperfect chap who lost his voice due to throat cancer, but then he stood up above anything and cared for nothing but to voice his love of our Savior which is unbelievable
Last night I was blessed to learn from this chap that there are 3 ways how our Dear Lord might have loved us in this life, and those 3 ways are suddenly putting me back to all those days when life was seemingly unfair but then I know by now He has loved me most by any means
And last night I was there, thanking for another week that has gone by, wishing for another week to come by and longing for every lesson that I might take up as life is a learning process that never ends
And last night I was there in my Church of Life, in Saint Theresa, with love and joy
And last night I was overjoyed by the facts I’m living a life which is nearly perfect
And last night I was there to see my candles melting to the end
And last night my love for my Redeemer was strengthened till the end
Have a splendid Monday!
Last night I was in Saint Theresa, being another person with sincerity and praying for simplicity as this life has been wonderful and I just want to swim this ocean of joy by being a person who believes in my Redeemer only
Last night I was amazed by one simple confession of one imperfect chap who lost his voice due to throat cancer, but then he stood up above anything and cared for nothing but to voice his love of our Savior which is unbelievable
Last night I was blessed to learn from this chap that there are 3 ways how our Dear Lord might have loved us in this life, and those 3 ways are suddenly putting me back to all those days when life was seemingly unfair but then I know by now He has loved me most by any means
And last night I was there, thanking for another week that has gone by, wishing for another week to come by and longing for every lesson that I might take up as life is a learning process that never ends
And last night I was there in my Church of Life, in Saint Theresa, with love and joy
And last night I was overjoyed by the facts I’m living a life which is nearly perfect
And last night I was there to see my candles melting to the end
And last night my love for my Redeemer was strengthened till the end
Have a splendid Monday!
The Beauty of Falling Rain
Who says falling rain is less beautiful?
I never say and I won’t…
Falling rain for me is an enticing moment to savor where a cup of hot tea seems to taste million bucks…
Have you tried this before?
Holding a cup of hot tea while biting one piece of croissant?
It is just fantastic in feeling…
If I can be honest, the view of this morning when this writing is composed is so cracking when pouring rain leads to another spell of misty look, a moment where the lights of motorists emerge like fireflies that are so nice to savor
Can you feel it?
And now…
Every drop of pouring rain describes the love of our Dear Lord to continue letting every grass, tree and forest to live their lives in the fullest meanings by savoring the natural water from heaven
Don’t you think it is really great?
Every now and then I know every pouring rain is a balance of sunny day, and what our Dear Lord has prepared is a life in balance, and I realize a life in balance is a fulfilled life, and a fulfilled life is the simplest secret to live this life to the fullest where utmost joy is well guaranteed
Happy pouring rain everyone!
I never say and I won’t…
Falling rain for me is an enticing moment to savor where a cup of hot tea seems to taste million bucks…
Have you tried this before?
Holding a cup of hot tea while biting one piece of croissant?
It is just fantastic in feeling…
If I can be honest, the view of this morning when this writing is composed is so cracking when pouring rain leads to another spell of misty look, a moment where the lights of motorists emerge like fireflies that are so nice to savor
Can you feel it?
And now…
Every drop of pouring rain describes the love of our Dear Lord to continue letting every grass, tree and forest to live their lives in the fullest meanings by savoring the natural water from heaven
Don’t you think it is really great?
Every now and then I know every pouring rain is a balance of sunny day, and what our Dear Lord has prepared is a life in balance, and I realize a life in balance is a fulfilled life, and a fulfilled life is the simplest secret to live this life to the fullest where utmost joy is well guaranteed
Happy pouring rain everyone!
Wednesday 4 February 2009
Sore Ini
Aku selalu merindukan sore seperti sore ini, langit bersaput awan mendung, gerimis turun perlahan, suhu menurun mengikuti jejak malam.
Aku selalu mencintai sore seperti sore ini, hening.. sepi.. cenderung dingin, apakah hati ini memang benar benar sedingin sore ini ? aku tak tahu, mungkin jawabannya iya atau hanya terkadang saja hatiku bisa sebeku ini ..
Aku selalu menikmati sore seperti sore ini, ketika matahari turun perlahan nun jauh disana, tanpa diganggu dering telepon manapun dan ditemani secangkir kopi hangat, aku menggali perasaan-perasaan ku sendiri, mencoba menyusun puzzle-puzzle hidup ku yang masih berantakan.
Aku menghirup dalam-dalam angin yang berhembus sore ini, seakan tak biarkan itu terlewat percuma, sore dimana aku mencoba menjadi pribadi yang sederhana, hidup untuk hari ini saja, tak takut apa yang terjadi esok, tak khawatir apa yang mungkin menimpa, tak menduga-duga apa yang belum terjadi didepan mata, dan semuanya aku serahkan kepada Sang Pencipta.
(load of thanks, von... for allowing me posting this stunning piece of your writing)
Aku selalu mencintai sore seperti sore ini, hening.. sepi.. cenderung dingin, apakah hati ini memang benar benar sedingin sore ini ? aku tak tahu, mungkin jawabannya iya atau hanya terkadang saja hatiku bisa sebeku ini ..
Aku selalu menikmati sore seperti sore ini, ketika matahari turun perlahan nun jauh disana, tanpa diganggu dering telepon manapun dan ditemani secangkir kopi hangat, aku menggali perasaan-perasaan ku sendiri, mencoba menyusun puzzle-puzzle hidup ku yang masih berantakan.
Aku menghirup dalam-dalam angin yang berhembus sore ini, seakan tak biarkan itu terlewat percuma, sore dimana aku mencoba menjadi pribadi yang sederhana, hidup untuk hari ini saja, tak takut apa yang terjadi esok, tak khawatir apa yang mungkin menimpa, tak menduga-duga apa yang belum terjadi didepan mata, dan semuanya aku serahkan kepada Sang Pencipta.
(load of thanks, von... for allowing me posting this stunning piece of your writing)
love letter (from the breeze, the semaya, seminyak bali)
my dearly beloved,
and the love of bali continues as the love for you continues blooming...
in a way where love was planted seemed to be perfect, it was the way how love was blossomed that made me passionate about you and yourself...
while many would whisper over and over again that they way love was planted was the best way to judge our love, i'd continue arguing and believing that "how the way was blossomed" was that mattered most to our only beloved love...
and i know i'd stick to what i believe in till heaven bursts...
and if felt "the breeze" in the samaya hotel might be too magical to feel when rain was harshly falling on previous saturday night, still, i was thinking that being with you would always matter most than which places we might have gone...
and if wished "the sea breeze" nearby shore might be too unreal to wish when moments we had seemed to be unrivalled, still, i could say that every smile you shared was enjoyed more than any italian salad or belgium breads that we had that night...
and if many "ifs" would be continued writing then i'd believe many "thens" would be continued jotting down too...
but the whole truth would stand forever across the time that with whom you go always matters most than where you go...
and suddenly my passion of writing about bali is now coming back again, and i must write about you more and more ( as more as i want t0 write about bali )...
still, i'm wordless to depict what blasting feeling i was involved with you in these recent days...
still, i'm speechless to tell you how much previous trip has taken me to another phase of life which is blissful is the feeling and joyful is the emotion...
still, many more to write despite too few to confess as i'm better in writing than telling...
now it is now that allows me to write about you...
now it is today that makes me believe that our love is now written in the stars...
now it is tomorrow that makes me wish to be with you for always...
(i wish i had done enough to make you believe that i love you)..
(i wish i had seen enough every token to believe that you were made for me)..
(i wish i had writen enough to make you feel how much i want you to be in this life)..
with every love in the world,
kevin anthony
and the love of bali continues as the love for you continues blooming...
in a way where love was planted seemed to be perfect, it was the way how love was blossomed that made me passionate about you and yourself...
while many would whisper over and over again that they way love was planted was the best way to judge our love, i'd continue arguing and believing that "how the way was blossomed" was that mattered most to our only beloved love...
and i know i'd stick to what i believe in till heaven bursts...
and if felt "the breeze" in the samaya hotel might be too magical to feel when rain was harshly falling on previous saturday night, still, i was thinking that being with you would always matter most than which places we might have gone...
and if wished "the sea breeze" nearby shore might be too unreal to wish when moments we had seemed to be unrivalled, still, i could say that every smile you shared was enjoyed more than any italian salad or belgium breads that we had that night...
and if many "ifs" would be continued writing then i'd believe many "thens" would be continued jotting down too...
but the whole truth would stand forever across the time that with whom you go always matters most than where you go...
and suddenly my passion of writing about bali is now coming back again, and i must write about you more and more ( as more as i want t0 write about bali )...
still, i'm wordless to depict what blasting feeling i was involved with you in these recent days...
still, i'm speechless to tell you how much previous trip has taken me to another phase of life which is blissful is the feeling and joyful is the emotion...
still, many more to write despite too few to confess as i'm better in writing than telling...
now it is now that allows me to write about you...
now it is today that makes me believe that our love is now written in the stars...
now it is tomorrow that makes me wish to be with you for always...
(i wish i had done enough to make you believe that i love you)..
(i wish i had seen enough every token to believe that you were made for me)..
(i wish i had writen enough to make you feel how much i want you to be in this life)..
with every love in the world,
kevin anthony
Thursday 22 January 2009
life is too short
22.17pm was the token when "life is too short" was reaching my mobile...
it was yesterday late evening, it was wednesday...
along the way on the way home, i was thinking hard of this sentence, thrilled by the meaning, moved by the implied message and the left wordless by vibrant expression...
i suddenly realise what to do and what to say...
i suddenly notice what lists are now topping my heart that i must do, and i must do it with my very heart at the first thing in the morning to all my loved ones...
suddenly i think of calling my loving mother...
suddenly i think of texting my respectful dad...
suddenly i think of dropping a hello to my close uncles...
suddenly i think of asking the latest updates of my best cousin "benny"...
and...
suddenly i think of buying a bunch of flower to someone i fancy much...
suddenly i think all of it...
suddenly i think of if, if, and if...
if life has a page then i want to write with simplicity...
if life has a name then i want to call it with honesty...
if life has a color then i want to paint it with sincerity...
suddenly i am too aware that "life is too short" (as my adorable boss texted last night)
suddenly i am thinking of asking my close friends whether they all know that "life is too short"...
suddenly....
(suddenly if life has a chance then i want to share this life with you)
it was yesterday late evening, it was wednesday...
along the way on the way home, i was thinking hard of this sentence, thrilled by the meaning, moved by the implied message and the left wordless by vibrant expression...
i suddenly realise what to do and what to say...
i suddenly notice what lists are now topping my heart that i must do, and i must do it with my very heart at the first thing in the morning to all my loved ones...
suddenly i think of calling my loving mother...
suddenly i think of texting my respectful dad...
suddenly i think of dropping a hello to my close uncles...
suddenly i think of asking the latest updates of my best cousin "benny"...
and...
suddenly i think of buying a bunch of flower to someone i fancy much...
suddenly i think all of it...
suddenly i think of if, if, and if...
if life has a page then i want to write with simplicity...
if life has a name then i want to call it with honesty...
if life has a color then i want to paint it with sincerity...
suddenly i am too aware that "life is too short" (as my adorable boss texted last night)
suddenly i am thinking of asking my close friends whether they all know that "life is too short"...
suddenly....
(suddenly if life has a chance then i want to share this life with you)
Friday 16 January 2009
love letter (16 january 2009)
my dear beloved,
in some fault wordings that might have hurt you, some might have said that "you are nothing", but i must tell you that you are "something", if not "everything" or "anything" to me and i wish to be with you in this life
in some blemish comments that might have blamed you, few might have said that "you are selfish", but i'm here to tell you that you are a gal with "sharing heart" who loves giving more to others you love, and this has impressed me most
many might have said the downsides of you and many more might have said the upsides of you too, but it is a kind of "take-and-give" of which this life could share, and being up and down is covered under one package called "life"
and if life seems to be uncertain, you could count on me for any certainty, to stand by you, to cheer you up and to be a shoulder to cry on (you know you can always count on for every knowledge i have, every resouces i hold as you have always my heart with you)
or when sorrowing moment hits you badly, you always can ask me and i'll be there for for you, days and nights, as i've promised to be with you thru hills and valleys of this life (you know i'm a man with words and once i've said it then you could keep my words for always)
and if all seems to be right, and nothing seems to be wrong, then can we both go for an ordinary trip to a place where heaven was recently found as this upcoming long weekend might be the best moment? don't you think we shall see a place near the steep cliff, a place where Gods were there to promise an eternity for happiness?
what do you think?
life is now up to you, if not us...
i'm ready for a blissful ride with you...
nothing else matters... why? because you have all my heart...
with all the love in the world,
kevin anthony
in some fault wordings that might have hurt you, some might have said that "you are nothing", but i must tell you that you are "something", if not "everything" or "anything" to me and i wish to be with you in this life
in some blemish comments that might have blamed you, few might have said that "you are selfish", but i'm here to tell you that you are a gal with "sharing heart" who loves giving more to others you love, and this has impressed me most
many might have said the downsides of you and many more might have said the upsides of you too, but it is a kind of "take-and-give" of which this life could share, and being up and down is covered under one package called "life"
and if life seems to be uncertain, you could count on me for any certainty, to stand by you, to cheer you up and to be a shoulder to cry on (you know you can always count on for every knowledge i have, every resouces i hold as you have always my heart with you)
or when sorrowing moment hits you badly, you always can ask me and i'll be there for for you, days and nights, as i've promised to be with you thru hills and valleys of this life (you know i'm a man with words and once i've said it then you could keep my words for always)
and if all seems to be right, and nothing seems to be wrong, then can we both go for an ordinary trip to a place where heaven was recently found as this upcoming long weekend might be the best moment? don't you think we shall see a place near the steep cliff, a place where Gods were there to promise an eternity for happiness?
what do you think?
life is now up to you, if not us...
i'm ready for a blissful ride with you...
nothing else matters... why? because you have all my heart...
with all the love in the world,
kevin anthony
Joy...
A piece of plain croissant can bring joy into my being…
How about you?
Do you know a kind of simple food that produces a kind of ecstasy into your mood?
Try to know it as joy can be found, and to start a day with joyful feeling is a gift of the day…
A piece of plain coffee can create an enhanced mood of my being…
How about you?
If I can be frank, in the morning when dawn was blessed with pouring rain, a simple thought of having a cup of “coffee of the day” in Starbuck had been enormous and this plain coffee was really a thing that made my day...
And the most… music, yes… music…
Playing music is the first thing I do to welcome every morning, and the last thing I wish to do before falling asleep is playing the music too
Why?
In music, arrays of blissful feelings are easily well stored into my heart and I must blame my decent ipod touch for making this close to perfect recently
As Friday is here, as morning still pours with some falling rain, as fragile feeling might be well mixed with increased adrenaline as weekend is coming back once again, I’m thinking that joy is a true gift to human being
If I’m filled up with joy, I could share and pass this joy to my loved ones
And if I start a day with joy, I hold large likeliness to taste that day with joy too
And if joy is large in my heart then bliss will blossom and happiness will be real
And life will be blended in sweetness
Suddenly, what said about “I can’t give you what I don’t have” is well tasted
If I do have extra joy then I could share to my loved ones that joy, and if I know what things that make me joyful then I know better how to be happier in this life
So, for a day like today, a day white-collars love most, a day when lager might be pouring or wine might be sipped later tonight, I’m unveiling you my simple secret to be happy by listing joyful things of my life
Now you know why I’ve been trying my best to live this life to the fullest by being happier, or at least, I’ve been striving to be happier in my life by doing “things I love to do”, by doing “things that bring me joys”, and by living this life positively (as said my Norman Vincent Peale or Robert Schuller)
Happiness is within distance, strive for it and grab it for more, and keep it for eternity
How about you?
Do you know a kind of simple food that produces a kind of ecstasy into your mood?
Try to know it as joy can be found, and to start a day with joyful feeling is a gift of the day…
A piece of plain coffee can create an enhanced mood of my being…
How about you?
If I can be frank, in the morning when dawn was blessed with pouring rain, a simple thought of having a cup of “coffee of the day” in Starbuck had been enormous and this plain coffee was really a thing that made my day...
And the most… music, yes… music…
Playing music is the first thing I do to welcome every morning, and the last thing I wish to do before falling asleep is playing the music too
Why?
In music, arrays of blissful feelings are easily well stored into my heart and I must blame my decent ipod touch for making this close to perfect recently
As Friday is here, as morning still pours with some falling rain, as fragile feeling might be well mixed with increased adrenaline as weekend is coming back once again, I’m thinking that joy is a true gift to human being
If I’m filled up with joy, I could share and pass this joy to my loved ones
And if I start a day with joy, I hold large likeliness to taste that day with joy too
And if joy is large in my heart then bliss will blossom and happiness will be real
And life will be blended in sweetness
Suddenly, what said about “I can’t give you what I don’t have” is well tasted
If I do have extra joy then I could share to my loved ones that joy, and if I know what things that make me joyful then I know better how to be happier in this life
So, for a day like today, a day white-collars love most, a day when lager might be pouring or wine might be sipped later tonight, I’m unveiling you my simple secret to be happy by listing joyful things of my life
Now you know why I’ve been trying my best to live this life to the fullest by being happier, or at least, I’ve been striving to be happier in my life by doing “things I love to do”, by doing “things that bring me joys”, and by living this life positively (as said my Norman Vincent Peale or Robert Schuller)
Happiness is within distance, strive for it and grab it for more, and keep it for eternity
Tuesday 13 January 2009
love gives us fluidity
The big question is now lying here
The only question left, however, is can I live up to my only wish to live to the fullest with this gal?
An enticing joy whenever I’m with her never precludes me from feeling so
After all, the moments of life in St. Theresa, the occasions of sweetness in Pisa Café, and the times of gladness in Starbuck are nothing but decent tokens how well this life has taken me
And if it had not been for the right time of encounter then I would almost certainly have gone on to walk down the aisle, somewhere nearby by the cliff, over one decent sunset, in a place where heaven was recently found in panache
While my heart hit the heights in recent weeks, however, I have also lost in brain for rationality and at heart for plausibility
And while my heart can be the only key to every answer to my future, she can be lynchpin of my bliss
Love gives us fluidity… Love breathes us freedom
And love also breeds seemingly irrationality, a commodity which has been all but a truest gift to enjoy this life to the fullest
It is I can forget what brain says when I’m in love...
I have no fear to live up…
I’m maturing with each month…
I’m taking up every likeliness with heart as the chance to be happiest –as now- might just happen once in lifetime
The only question left, however, is can I live up to my only wish to live to the fullest with this gal?
An enticing joy whenever I’m with her never precludes me from feeling so
After all, the moments of life in St. Theresa, the occasions of sweetness in Pisa Café, and the times of gladness in Starbuck are nothing but decent tokens how well this life has taken me
And if it had not been for the right time of encounter then I would almost certainly have gone on to walk down the aisle, somewhere nearby by the cliff, over one decent sunset, in a place where heaven was recently found in panache
While my heart hit the heights in recent weeks, however, I have also lost in brain for rationality and at heart for plausibility
And while my heart can be the only key to every answer to my future, she can be lynchpin of my bliss
Love gives us fluidity… Love breathes us freedom
And love also breeds seemingly irrationality, a commodity which has been all but a truest gift to enjoy this life to the fullest
It is I can forget what brain says when I’m in love...
I have no fear to live up…
I’m maturing with each month…
I’m taking up every likeliness with heart as the chance to be happiest –as now- might just happen once in lifetime
i'm riding my life with no fear
You have has always made it plain.
There is as much chance of you capturing my heart in fullest extent as previous weekend moving from close to closer, a perfect way to describe our closeness as steamed fish and Karedok seemed to be tastiest in Sari Kuring, somewhere nearby SCBD
You always believe perfection will arrive when time is right without rushing it or nurturing it, and this is something I learn from you, and if I can be honest, this might be something that might have been put me in jeopardy in the past
It can be a frustrating spell….
Like waiting for fine wine to mature or cheese to ripen….
So the keyword here is patience (as you believe patience brings out the best for always)
But there is a whiff around my circle which suggests waiting for right time to find the right person could be a barren option and this is something I might have fallen to believe in, but then I realize waiting for you is a distinct option
It was more worthwhile I guess
I did not regret the slightest sign of being slightly late in finding you in this life, or intimidated by an atmosphere which was about as “fearsome” as bachelor’s life gets me in perfection
As I put it succinctly: "I’ve my life with no fear."
It is one thing many have been tempted to comment that I might have been trapped in relentless searching Ms. Perfect but and it is quite another for few to notice that I’m only a casual chap who aims to the Ms. Right (far from perfection but close to completion)
Suddenly, it gets even better in feeling when knowing my time is closer than thought
Suddenly, all are amazing feelings to feel
Suddenly, you are the most heart-pleasing creature in this life
(all of sudden, out of blue, i'm riding this life without any fear of future)
There is as much chance of you capturing my heart in fullest extent as previous weekend moving from close to closer, a perfect way to describe our closeness as steamed fish and Karedok seemed to be tastiest in Sari Kuring, somewhere nearby SCBD
You always believe perfection will arrive when time is right without rushing it or nurturing it, and this is something I learn from you, and if I can be honest, this might be something that might have been put me in jeopardy in the past
It can be a frustrating spell….
Like waiting for fine wine to mature or cheese to ripen….
So the keyword here is patience (as you believe patience brings out the best for always)
But there is a whiff around my circle which suggests waiting for right time to find the right person could be a barren option and this is something I might have fallen to believe in, but then I realize waiting for you is a distinct option
It was more worthwhile I guess
I did not regret the slightest sign of being slightly late in finding you in this life, or intimidated by an atmosphere which was about as “fearsome” as bachelor’s life gets me in perfection
As I put it succinctly: "I’ve my life with no fear."
It is one thing many have been tempted to comment that I might have been trapped in relentless searching Ms. Perfect but and it is quite another for few to notice that I’m only a casual chap who aims to the Ms. Right (far from perfection but close to completion)
Suddenly, it gets even better in feeling when knowing my time is closer than thought
Suddenly, all are amazing feelings to feel
Suddenly, you are the most heart-pleasing creature in this life
(all of sudden, out of blue, i'm riding this life without any fear of future)
Friday 9 January 2009
love letter (9 january 2009)
My dear beloved,
Last night, a moment with you, produced a brilliant piece of utmost joy inside my heart and I know it would be against any destiny if I try to waive this joyful moment from memory of life
Last night, a moment with you, fed me with indescribable feeling to feel how lucky I’ve been in this life to have met and known you then been loved by you, trailing my every emotion of life to realize this emotion
Last night, a moment with you, proved to the only best joy of yesterday where rain was falling as we both walking hand in hand without any rushing feeling that rain might be harshly pouring in later minutes
Last night, a moment with you, was full of values, linking every talk with smartness and connecting every smile with thankfulness where I was ended up laughing as you were on the phone with my best nephew on the way back home
Last night, a moment with you, was set to be perfect in setting as romantic view was breathtaking inside as continued falling rain was harshly pouring outside, leaving us to wish for this kind of moment to last forever
Last night, a moment with you, was made in heaven
Last night, a moment with you, was always first-best for much of my time
Last night, a moment with you, was painted in an everlasting memory of my life
With all the love in this world,
Kevin Anthony...
Last night, a moment with you, produced a brilliant piece of utmost joy inside my heart and I know it would be against any destiny if I try to waive this joyful moment from memory of life
Last night, a moment with you, fed me with indescribable feeling to feel how lucky I’ve been in this life to have met and known you then been loved by you, trailing my every emotion of life to realize this emotion
Last night, a moment with you, proved to the only best joy of yesterday where rain was falling as we both walking hand in hand without any rushing feeling that rain might be harshly pouring in later minutes
Last night, a moment with you, was full of values, linking every talk with smartness and connecting every smile with thankfulness where I was ended up laughing as you were on the phone with my best nephew on the way back home
Last night, a moment with you, was set to be perfect in setting as romantic view was breathtaking inside as continued falling rain was harshly pouring outside, leaving us to wish for this kind of moment to last forever
Last night, a moment with you, was made in heaven
Last night, a moment with you, was always first-best for much of my time
Last night, a moment with you, was painted in an everlasting memory of my life
With all the love in this world,
Kevin Anthony...
about last night
how do i start to write about is what i want to end to write about, and it is about last night, just last night
i was trapped in contentment when rain was trickling down as i walked her to ice cream's corner, somewhere nearby st. theresa -church of life-, a place where hundreds of candles have been lit, a place where moments of joy have been started with
i was there with this smart young lady, teasing her for a cup of ice cream as she adores ice cream more than any kind of food, while i was trapped with a can of diet coke to please my thirst
the evening went sinfully stunning as decent talks shared and enticing laughter poured as we lived our life for last night, absorbed with amazing view of falling rain and we knew this kind of moment was hard to come by in this hectic city like jakarta
if i then scream for an ice cream wouldn't hurt her, i wish she could hear what i was screaming inside of my heart that i've been wanting her all these days to be part of my life, once and for all...
if i then this pouring rain was too harsh in sound that might have prevented my whispers to her ears, i wish she could listen what i whispered that she has been the central part of my life in recent months, once for all...
if this evening would finally end as ice cream run out of place, as diet coke dried in the glass, i wish i had done enough to let her aware that i do really want her to be included in every walk of this life, once for all...
i wish her enough of last night
and still as this morning arrived, i was once again swayed in the moment of joy, thinking about last night, a moment in pisa's cafe, a time in ikan bakar cianjur batu tulis, a series of laughter and smiles plus talks that would remain forever
and still as this friday fell on, i was hoping in the early morning, down on my knee to pray to our Dear Lord wishing He'd bless this kind of sweetness that He's allowed me tasting in best way of life with this independent gal
and still as my starbuck coffee still smells good, i'm wishing my writing has done enough to express the way i feel about her, the way i love about her, the way i adore the future life with her
and now...
now it is all down to every faith i hold about my future, about her, about one fine day in uluwatu bali, about walking down the aisle, about loving for eternity, about life till the end
now it is my time to move on by exercising my faith in love, once for all...
now, all i know, i've marked another night to remember with a cup of ice cream and a can of diet coke in pisa cafe st. theresa
now it is all about last night, a night where an evening was hold in indescribable bliss of life
yes, it is now and last night...
Have a splendid weekend, my dear beloved!
i was trapped in contentment when rain was trickling down as i walked her to ice cream's corner, somewhere nearby st. theresa -church of life-, a place where hundreds of candles have been lit, a place where moments of joy have been started with
i was there with this smart young lady, teasing her for a cup of ice cream as she adores ice cream more than any kind of food, while i was trapped with a can of diet coke to please my thirst
the evening went sinfully stunning as decent talks shared and enticing laughter poured as we lived our life for last night, absorbed with amazing view of falling rain and we knew this kind of moment was hard to come by in this hectic city like jakarta
if i then scream for an ice cream wouldn't hurt her, i wish she could hear what i was screaming inside of my heart that i've been wanting her all these days to be part of my life, once and for all...
if i then this pouring rain was too harsh in sound that might have prevented my whispers to her ears, i wish she could listen what i whispered that she has been the central part of my life in recent months, once for all...
if this evening would finally end as ice cream run out of place, as diet coke dried in the glass, i wish i had done enough to let her aware that i do really want her to be included in every walk of this life, once for all...
i wish her enough of last night
and still as this morning arrived, i was once again swayed in the moment of joy, thinking about last night, a moment in pisa's cafe, a time in ikan bakar cianjur batu tulis, a series of laughter and smiles plus talks that would remain forever
and still as this friday fell on, i was hoping in the early morning, down on my knee to pray to our Dear Lord wishing He'd bless this kind of sweetness that He's allowed me tasting in best way of life with this independent gal
and still as my starbuck coffee still smells good, i'm wishing my writing has done enough to express the way i feel about her, the way i love about her, the way i adore the future life with her
and now...
now it is all down to every faith i hold about my future, about her, about one fine day in uluwatu bali, about walking down the aisle, about loving for eternity, about life till the end
now it is my time to move on by exercising my faith in love, once for all...
now, all i know, i've marked another night to remember with a cup of ice cream and a can of diet coke in pisa cafe st. theresa
now it is all about last night, a night where an evening was hold in indescribable bliss of life
yes, it is now and last night...
Have a splendid weekend, my dear beloved!
Wednesday 7 January 2009
love letter (7 january 2009)
my only beloved,
never go unnoticed in my life if dating a gal like you will drive me crazy, but you did it with panache, taking me out from an ordinary world then putting me in a world called "loving world" where all emerged to be extra ordinary by all means
the day we got together when new year eve was filled up with fireworks;
the moment when walking thru apartment's podium when new year was closest in heart; the evening when admiration of love was poured joyfully in the world, i know i'll fall into your arms of love sooner rather than later
when 2009 was finally turning up, i was nothing but a chap with ton of joys when knowing we passed this 2008 together and welcomed 2009 together, and together, i believe we'll sail this world of joy
in this 2009, i know my time is now entirely up to you
i've never so wanted to be with someone to start this complete life until i met you
i've failed not to fall into you until i know i can't run away from you
and i confessed that you tied me up with your love in my heart and soul
and now i wish nothing but a time to be with you
and now i think nothing but a moment to love you more
and now i long for nothing but many moments to be your man in this life
others might say this is unreal but i want to love you till sun don't shine, till words don't rhyme, if possible, till heaven burts and i see my foreseeable future will be ended up with you
i love every naturality you've brought into my life
i love every smartness you've impressed me whenever we're trapped in chatting
i love every independence you've shown me since your early years
i love every sensitivity you've displayed over months when we seeing each other
i love evey casual confession, ordinary gestures and loving moments
and i love it all
i know that you love bali but what i don't know is that you love bali more than i do as you want to work in bali in later part of your life, something i wish to do when life stamping me in upcoming years
but now i shall win your heart for good
and this is what i could promise you...
a day when sunset is set in perfect scenery...
over one fancy cliff near uluwatu, in a place called bali where heaven was recently found...
i'd promise in front of our Dear Lord to love you till death do us apart
i promise you this...
and i'll promise to stand by you in ups and downs, thru thicks and thins over the hills and valleys to be with you all of my life
i promise to love you for eternity
with all the love in the world,
kevin anthony
never go unnoticed in my life if dating a gal like you will drive me crazy, but you did it with panache, taking me out from an ordinary world then putting me in a world called "loving world" where all emerged to be extra ordinary by all means
the day we got together when new year eve was filled up with fireworks;
the moment when walking thru apartment's podium when new year was closest in heart; the evening when admiration of love was poured joyfully in the world, i know i'll fall into your arms of love sooner rather than later
when 2009 was finally turning up, i was nothing but a chap with ton of joys when knowing we passed this 2008 together and welcomed 2009 together, and together, i believe we'll sail this world of joy
in this 2009, i know my time is now entirely up to you
i've never so wanted to be with someone to start this complete life until i met you
i've failed not to fall into you until i know i can't run away from you
and i confessed that you tied me up with your love in my heart and soul
and now i wish nothing but a time to be with you
and now i think nothing but a moment to love you more
and now i long for nothing but many moments to be your man in this life
others might say this is unreal but i want to love you till sun don't shine, till words don't rhyme, if possible, till heaven burts and i see my foreseeable future will be ended up with you
i love every naturality you've brought into my life
i love every smartness you've impressed me whenever we're trapped in chatting
i love every independence you've shown me since your early years
i love every sensitivity you've displayed over months when we seeing each other
i love evey casual confession, ordinary gestures and loving moments
and i love it all
i know that you love bali but what i don't know is that you love bali more than i do as you want to work in bali in later part of your life, something i wish to do when life stamping me in upcoming years
but now i shall win your heart for good
and this is what i could promise you...
a day when sunset is set in perfect scenery...
over one fancy cliff near uluwatu, in a place called bali where heaven was recently found...
i'd promise in front of our Dear Lord to love you till death do us apart
i promise you this...
and i'll promise to stand by you in ups and downs, thru thicks and thins over the hills and valleys to be with you all of my life
i promise to love you for eternity
with all the love in the world,
kevin anthony
i miss you (like nothing else)
i miss you
i do miss you like nothing else
i've missed you since this morning
i miss you like i want to be with you all day and night
and i do mean it from the bottom of my heart
i call you just to listen your voice
i text you just to read your written word
i wish you just wish you to see you tonight
and i was lucky to be able to see you over a simple dinner at the hawker of menteng last night
suddenly a thought of being with you was uncontrollable
suddenly a wish to fly with you to Bali was killing me
suddely a feeling of missing you is a killing kind
and i know i miss you by heart, soul and mind
and i just miss you
if day starts with gloomy weather like today, i won't be worried as i know all worries will be washed away because i'll be with you in later hours to enjoy our being
if morning kicks off with blemish view of pouring rain, i won't be disturbed as i know all feelings from gloom to doom will be vanished by the time i see our togetherness in dinner time
if day, or morning, or afternoon and evening will be a gale, still, i won't be distracted because being with you would give me load of joyful feelings that only love could do
out of blue, i start missing you again on this cloudy morning
and i can't stop writing how much i've been missing you since seeing you last night
truly, i miss you in my heartbeat
deeply, i miss you for always
and sinfully, i'll miss you till heaven burts
i do miss you like nothing else
i've missed you since this morning
i miss you like i want to be with you all day and night
and i do mean it from the bottom of my heart
i call you just to listen your voice
i text you just to read your written word
i wish you just wish you to see you tonight
and i was lucky to be able to see you over a simple dinner at the hawker of menteng last night
suddenly a thought of being with you was uncontrollable
suddenly a wish to fly with you to Bali was killing me
suddely a feeling of missing you is a killing kind
and i know i miss you by heart, soul and mind
and i just miss you
if day starts with gloomy weather like today, i won't be worried as i know all worries will be washed away because i'll be with you in later hours to enjoy our being
if morning kicks off with blemish view of pouring rain, i won't be disturbed as i know all feelings from gloom to doom will be vanished by the time i see our togetherness in dinner time
if day, or morning, or afternoon and evening will be a gale, still, i won't be distracted because being with you would give me load of joyful feelings that only love could do
out of blue, i start missing you again on this cloudy morning
and i can't stop writing how much i've been missing you since seeing you last night
truly, i miss you in my heartbeat
deeply, i miss you for always
and sinfully, i'll miss you till heaven burts
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