Thursday 29 May 2008

In This Life (I)

In This Life, I leave it "Black" and "Blank"

But once you hit the play button, the song starts taking you into a sphere where only blissful emotion is blossomed and then you'd realise how nice all these lyrics of this amazing song

In This Life I Was Loved By You

I, sometimes and many times, was related this song to my Grandma who loved me more than other grandchildrens and her tons of love seemed to be everlasting even years had passed by when heaven took her way in peace some years back

When this song was played, I could feel the chill running down my spine

In this life I was loved by you...

In This Life

Tuesday 27 May 2008

I'll Always Luv You

It was not something usual when you turned up in my dream a couple nights ago

And for long spell I was trapped in wordless moment when the morning of Saturday arrived in panache

A few years back I was in deeply blemish emotion when heaven took you back for good and I was crying not to let you go but ended up in sweet surrender knowing you belonged to Jesus and He had released you from any pain that captured you for months

You are the gesture of love, the token of care, the symbol of sincerity

You are always the place I run to because I know I’d find a cushion of love

You are always the shelter I turn to because I know I’d be spoilt by you with ton of ice cream, pool of soft drink and series of decent food when my school holidays arrived back in early years of my childhood in Papua and those years were the best years of my life

I remember one cold night when rain hit harshly our city, I was screaming for blanket and you walked up the stair just to give me those extra blankets to ensure no cold could kill me that night

I remember one hot afternoon after sweating my childhood life with soccer game; I was awaited by you with two cans of Coke & Sprite plus one plate of Ice Cream just to show how much you had loved me as your grandchildren

I remember one decent morning when sun was yet to shine, I was called to enjoy the tastiest Yellow Rice with spicy & chilly tuna just to remind me how much luv you had showered to this life during this childhood

I remember one stunning evenings when I was gathered with a host of friends till late midnight but then I was called home by you because you still kept one plate of tasty fried chicken for me as fried chicken was my favorite food

I remember many days, many nights and many memories of you, Grandma

Moment of visiting you in the hospital when you were lying paralyzed was always triggering any tears of mine

And moment when you holding my hand, trying to hold it tighter, trying to open your eyes for a while, then you crying for some whiles, and it was sorely touching moment of my life forever

And moment of leaving you before going back to Jakarta, I was extremely fragile as I was holding your hand praying for your best but knowing your health might be in the shell and I knew by heart your days were numbered

And when I was on the plane, one nice gentleman sitting next to me telling me to keep loving my loved ones everyday without waiting for their best days or last days

He told me whenever I luv my loved ones then
....“I shall luv them with all of my heart” and...
....“I shall luv them on each and every day” and...
....“I shall tell them that I luv them”...

Then I learn when I luv, I’d luv like it is never going to hurt
Then I learn when I sing, I’d sing like nobody listening
Then I learn when I dance, I’d dance like nobody watching

Grandma,
I know you are now in heaven with our Jesus who blessed us
I know no more pain as only peace is now surrounding you
I know you’ve joint Grandpa to be together forever and ever

Rest in peace, Grandma…
Your love is forever...

I’ll always luv you

I Don't Care

Babe,

I do luv you with all of my heart

I don't care whether it is right or wrong

I don't care whether you realise I'm seen or unseen

I don't care whether you are happy with me or only with my brain's cell

I just don't care...

She Wrote Me....

I knew there was something special about you
But I didn’t see that the first time I saw you
But somehow in some strange way
I felt a gentle tug in my heart
I don’t know how, I don’t know why
It may be the way you smile
It may be the way you look
Either way, I realized I was beginning to like you

I started wishing… I started dreaming…
The feeling is something I’ve never felt before
It’s a wonderful feeling that sometimes makes me smile
It’s a feeling that makes me all jumpy inside
But it’s also a feeling that makes me want to cry

I’ve watched you from a distance
And I’ve longed for a single smile
But all you ever gave me is longing
My heart aches every time I hear you sing
Coz you sound so beautiful

I feel warm every time I see you smile
My heart beats faster every time you walk by
I don’t wanna say I’m crazy about you
I don’t wanna say I’m falling for you
Coz it hurts to know that I would never mean anything to you
And it hurts even more to know there’s nothing I can do

Sometimes it makes me so sad
But still, I can’t stop thinking of you
I can’t say I love you, I can’t say I do
For I don’t even know you
And even if I wanted to… say a thing or two
There’s no way I can get through

So I guess I’ll just be admiring you from a distance
I can’t even look at you as much as I want to
There are a lot of things I don’t understand
A lot of questions I don’t have answers to
But one thing I know for sure
I may mean nothing to you
But boy, am I glad to know you!

And no matter how stupid this feeling can get
I’m never ashamed to admit it’s true
Coz no matter how hopeless, no matter how painful
God knows I’m happy there’s YOU…

Monday 19 May 2008

David Archuleta

American Idol

David Archuleta is simply astonishing!

First I fancied his purity of voice then later took my breath away when singing "Imagine" before I was realised that a decent star had been born when he sang "Smoky Mountain Memories" a few days ago

For many minutes I was surpised with his vocal when hitting the high notes but then it was not the end as I was continously mesmerized when he perfectly pitching the lower notes in "Long And Winding Road" and this what made him so special on this 7th American Idol

For many times I love American Idol...
The was a time when I was so much into "Lakisha Jones" or "Bo Bice"...

There was a time when I was almost in tears when Constantine sang "I Can't Make You Love Me If You Don't"...

There was a time when I was so speechless when Vonzell Salomon performed "I Have Nothing" as her vocal was suddenly nicer than Whitney Houston, and no wonder if Simon Cowell was more than just impressed that night...

There was a time when I was singing in freedom and rhyming in joy when Amanda Overmyer flashed "I Hate Myself For Loving You" and that mood was just uplifted when this Joan Jett's song brought me back to the old days...

There were many times I shall be honest to fancy American Idols more but I can't be better in my honesty when confessing that a performance of David Achuleta continues making me wonder about the talent he has...

For a very sure, if his single is released after this American Idol 7, I'll surely buy and this is the first record I buy from an American Idols

Then a love of music continues pouring my life
Then a joy of music continues wrapping the big portion of my life
Then a bliss of music is there for me, for eternity

I wish you all the best in this singing competition.
If allowed, I'm hopeful, to see you crowned as the American Idol 2008
If allowed, I'm wishful, to see you written in the history of American Idol as the youngest ever winner

Above all, once again, I'm wishing you all the best!

The Memories of You

I know you’ll always be there in every walk of our life

I know I’ll always see you up there in every blue sky, always seeing you in big smile and always smiling for you in millions whiles

I know there'll be no more pains or tears and days of genuine agony are now behind
I know there's nothing else but only peace is now with you

In every word that I know, I believe you are now in heaven with our Heavenly Father

I know you are now together with all loved ones
I know you are in the moment of bliss for eternity
I know you are in heaven by now

No more pain; no more anguish; no more agony
Only peace; only love; only bliss

Not is a single day now passed in dreary tone and no more teary eyes left to break our heart to fall apart in deep crying

Not is a single night now passed in thorny feeling because no more tears left to cry and no more sorrow left to feel

That night...
I saw a joyful sound when you leaning on our Jesus
I know He always leads and guides us

That night...
I witnessed a peaceful look when you leaning on our Redeemer
I know He has loved us most

Till today, the memories of you keep me strong

Tuesday 6 May 2008

A Day Like This

A day like this is hard to come by

A day where morning of Tuesday was started brilliantly but late afternoon wrapped me in fragile mood as tiredness of yesterdays is now really capturing my body

I was feeling exhausted for diverse reasons but a thought of having future with you is now entering a spell of life which is what I’m seriously thinking now

Not much said but not less mentioned either because it is purely a decent homework of I, me and myself for which I’ll have to sort it out before the end of June as October is what I’m aiming at this year

A day like this suddenly reminds me of you

I have seen love might crank up, but a move comes to fruition is within distance and I’m sure a loss of you would be a huge blow not just for my faith in love but for the joy of life as a whole

And your decent smile is Winona-type, your voice is Jenifer-style and your flirtatious hug is a hybrid of love and lust that make you so special in my heart of heart...

All I know all leads make you topping my mind in these days
Now I’m longing for splendid days with you in Bali…
(Please tell me you want me too)

Good night, Babe…

A Letter From Mrs. Steven

Dear Mr. Steven

In this life, thinking of growing old with you is the only wish I do have
In this life, being with you is nothing but the ultimate goal of mine

Nurturing Giorgio and Akiko while seeing them grow in precious ways of belief is truly my only dream in this life and I’m all in genuine thankfulness, and if I could dream of, I wish to count all remaining days with you, The Love of My Life

Giving is taking for me and taking is giving for you
Our language of love is giving without taking for which sharing is another ground that lasts forever

One wish to realize is I’m dreaming to welcome elderly days with you, resting from tiredness of life and seizing every moment with you

In all wishes of beauty, enjoying moments of life when aging wraps us, remembering stages of life that we’ve been thru and witnessing Giorgio and Akiko enter a new sphere of mature life is all I wish to experience with you

We’ll be taking a best care of each other, and if Dear God allows, only death do us apart in peaceful surrounding of Bali

Oh Babe,
Would you?

Mrs. Steven

Cute Baby

One Night

Long day and I'm ready
I'm waiting for your call
Cos I've made up my mind

My heart aches with a hunger
And a want that you were mine
No, I can not deny

So for one night...
Is it alright...
That I give you...

My Heart, My Love, My Heart
Just for one night
My Body, My Soul
Just for one night
My Love, My Love,
For one night...
One Night...
One Night...


When morning awakes me
Well I know I'll be alone
And I feel I'll be fine

So dont you worry about me
I'm not empty on my own
For inside, I'm alive

That for one night...
It was so right...
That I gave you....

My Heart, My Love, My Heart
Just for one night
My Body, My Soul
Just for one night
My Love, I Loved
For one night...
One Night...
One Night...

For one night
It was so right
That I gave you

My Heart, My Love, My Heart
Just for one night
My Body, My Soul
Just for one night
My Love, my love
For one night (one night)...
One night...
One night...
One night...

Method of Love

Kiss on the ear = "I'm Horny"
Kiss on the cheek = "We're Friends"
Kiss on the hand = "I Adore You"

Kiss on the shoulder = "I Want You"
Kiss on the lips = "I Love You"
Holding hands = "We Can Learn To Love Each Other"

A wink = "Let's Get It On"
Slap on the butt = "Watch Out"
Playing with the ear = "I Can't Live Without You"


Arms around the waist = "I Love You Too Much To Let Go"
Pulling hair on head = "Tell Me You Love Me"
Looking into each other's eyes = "Let's Get Romantic"

Holding on tight = "Don't Let Go"

Saturday 3 May 2008

Swimming & Me (Bali Too)

Forget the heat

Ignore the hot which would shower my face then my back in the direction of making me looking tan and tanner

Swimming pool, once again, will take bigger portion of joy in my list when I’ll go swimming for the fourth time in this week, confirming my love for water sport has been immense

Once again swimming is the best sport according to me which was demanding in stamina but compelling in endurance

True, other sports with nicer equipments and prettier floor might differ from a pool with water, but, boy, swimming did push myself to the limit - with sweat and courage and determination and an energy which not all sports could match

If 1.5KM Non-Stop-Free-Style is still a question mark of endurance then I shall challenge you to count an almost 900 calories in a series of sport which you might find it harder than thought

In this swimming, enthusiasm and desire are blended well in the rhythm of perfect breathing and top fitness level

To such as cool water that flirts, heat that burns and endurance that challenges, swimming is all the best that a sport should be all about

To places such as Graha Residence (Surabaya) and Century Park Hotel (Jakarta), places which are magnificent with countless challenges to beat and limitless beauty to enjoy

To the joy of swimming, which turns up so loyally and when I need it most always in the best mood when I reach finishing line

Yet mostly to the love of swimming, the love that never ends which makes me a healthier and happier man, I’ve been thankful for so many indescribable reasons for having loved me so much in many ways

Well, swimming 3-4 times a week does not file a sin to my healthiness as once lager did when days went into rough ride some years ago

And what an impact to my body shape!
My shape has been stable, lean and fit which signal the youth enthusiasm lives on and the love of swimming seems to live on forever into the net of this life

A special gift for loving swimming most!
A sport, in truth, which brings plenty of contentment, giving enormous joy and pleasing every of muscle with relaxation whenever the swimming reaches the ending line

The end of 1.5KM, swimming consistently in free style is an always the defining moment of an absorbing feeling with rousing bliss pour into life that lasts for hours later

Now it is my time to go back into swimming pool again
Now is my time to flirt with heat of Surabaya and let myself into capture of sunburn to let me looking tan, if not, tanner, a look that my female friend always loves to see in me

Trust me; no angst will follow when heat burns my skin...
Nothing…
In the end, it is me and joy who are left when swimming is over...
And heat is right and hot is correct and I might be better looking when I am tanner and healthier in shape...

Now I could boast a love with swimming is a sweet blessing but then others will argue of my love on diving and snorkeling besides speeding jet-sky in Bali

Only Bali and swimming do beckon why I’ve been in love with them

A Loving Scene (Carl Dream, Alor)

Friday 2 May 2008

I Just Luv It

I love the way we talked last night

I love every honesty that you shared about all the love in the world
I love every word of insisting that the love of you was higher than sky and bigger than universe

I love every flirt that tells that a love like yours is deeper than ocean
I love every token in spoken words that ton of love is there for me

I love to love every love that is more important than any thing in this world

I love it.... I luv it most

My Future With IM...

It was a kind of shocking news to have found that my boss FR had blighted my late afternoon of Wednesday thru one call at 5.30PM Jakarta’s Time.

I was apparent to have all the time in the world to digest what he unveiled and I am now analyzing all those findings that 2009 might be more than just a challenging journey to my life for which I’m so wishing to pass it in style

It was a call which had all the hallmarks of my plan to enter IM, a sphere that tempted my brain, a spell that I had postponed for a while

The call proved to be my final telling act of “a must to move faster” in this IM area, an area which offer an ocean of flexibility and a host of creativity

Mixed feelings were poured between a wish to test my best capability in entering new territory of business and a dream to live a flexible living where internet is the money machine 24-hour a day and 7-day a week and it is a borderless world as no boundary is said as I could be either sitting in Ubud or coffeing in Lovina to watch over this business

Still, the final telling is calling and a time to move on is now
I know the time is here and I believe my Dear Lord has signaled me the best time to move on

Now it is my time to respond for any of His Calls…
And I do promise to develop my talent to the fullest like the way I live my life to the fullest too...

I'm loving challenges and always will